Mentally drained today

[froghat]

You ever have one of those days where you just feel hopeless and tired of everything? I've been feeling better lately, but tonight, out of nowhere, I felt really depressed and lonely. Me and my sisters went to a movie and I couldn't even enjoy the movie. I feel so isolated from people and today I felt panic walking into the movie theatre. I think this was brought on because I went through a long job interview process recently and I didn't get the job. All that worry and nervousness and I didn't even get the job. Now I have to start over again and I just feel edgy. Having no friends is killing me. The only person I can have a long conversation with is my therapist. My parents are cool, but they are just as socially awkward as I am. We have nothing to talk about and it ticks me off! Before I start my new job I would like to practice my social skills, so i don't freak out my first day, whenever that is, but I have no one to talk to. No one!

I'm under so much stress! The last few years I've had no friends and it's starting to catch up with me. Keeping all my thoughts bottled up is sooo unhealthy. I don't know where to start. I'm 27 and I feel like the biggest loser. I haven't had friends in years, I've never had a GF, I'm currently unemployed and I'm basically behind in life and feel so unconfident dealing with people. It's sad, but my therapist appointment each week is the only thing I look forward to anymore. It's the only time I feel like a human being. I can't stand living at home with mommie and daddy!!! It's like living in a prison. I mean, if they were a good influence on me, ok, but they are far from a good example.

I'm trying really hard to fight my SA and get back into a semi normal life. Job and friends.... But I feel like I'm doing this all by myself and it's hard to keep going when no one is there to cheer you up on rotten days. What really scares me is the next job I get. If it ends as bad as my last job, I don't know what I'll do. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If something doesn't workout in my social life soon, I'm gonna go insane. I can't take the loneliness anymore.

 

[dottie]

I relate with every word you said, down to:

What really scares me is the next job I get. If it ends as bad as my last job, I don't know what I'll do.

My last job ended badly, too.

It is great that you interviewed but keep in mind the job market is starting to go downhill (assuming you're American). So many people are getting laid off and this means that it will be harder to get a job. Don't take it personally and don't put all of your eggs in one basket, asuming to be hired because an interview went well. Just keep interviewing and something will happen.

Do you have any old aquaintances you haven't talked to in awhile? Maybe you can call them and see if they are doing something for Halloween. If not, plan something! Maybe a nearby city is having a parade/celebration type thing that you can get dressed up for, then hit up a restaurant. Just an idea.

 

[siren_0_0]

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[NothingElseMatters]

you r definetely NOT a loser!!!a small failure doesnt have to make u feel so bad.it's not so easy to get a job and most ppl don't do well in interviews .but if you insist i am sure u will find a job!but don't give up!yeah life sucks sometimes and when u have noone to talk too it's sucks even more.but don't let this put you down!if we stop hoping...what else do we have?!