I’m with ya. I had my first major panic attack in July (it lasted three days in waves) I finally had my wife call the ambulance when I thought I was having a heart attack. In reflection though I had several events prior to that but thought they were related to heart because of fluttering and tightness (and of course my doctor couldn’t figure it out because EKG’s and so on were good). I have been taking Ativan then Xanax and tried a couple SSRI’s but my body didn’t like that too much. I thought the effects of the tranquilizer were un-bearable so after weaning off I have been benzo free for 2.5 weeks now. Of course now that they have worn off I have to deal with the anxiety and build up to panic.
I am having some success, although I panicked in the store the other day I was able to breath through it. If I keep moving when I get anxious it helps a bit, what has worked the best though was going on a long bike ride yesterday. I was scared to death at first but I would stop and walk it off then get back on the bike and afterwards I felt better than I have felt in months, calm, relaxed and happy and it was well worth it. This morning was a little rough but I have been trying to tell myself that the sensations I’m feeling (although scary, and painful) aren’t really hurting me and are just sensations and sensations won’t kill you, and the thought of facing the fear is giving me some confidence and subsequently calming me down.
After doing (a lot) of reading on the subject it seems that those of us that are suffering from this have our anxiety thermostat stuck on high so that fight or flight reaction is just a trigger away. So we must turn that thermostat down and retrain our minds to be calm. It sure is tough though.
Hang in there and good luck.