I used to smoke pot heavily for about two years. I used to love smoking and just having a good time, talking about the stupidest shit and going on adventures (albeit if only to the store
). Then something changed, and fairly rapidly. I began to get very pronounced symptoms of sp, enough to where I hung out with my friends less and less in order to avoid smoking. I pretty much quit except durring times when I felt confident that I could maintain myself. There were some things that pretty much gave me panic attacks, for example, I could no longer enjoy smoking in a group...for some reason I became "hyper aware" of everyone and began analyzing everything that was going on, I no longer had a concept of humor when this happened. When smoking with one or two other people the same basic thing happened, but also I became afraid to talk, it was like my mind went blank and I had nothing to talk about...but felt compeled to have a conversation. This created a great deal of anxiety.
I do not smoke hardly at all anymore, but I still have these symptoms at a minor level when I'm sober. I have had sp to an extent all of my life, but smoking has made it worse and it is a problem...
