Long time sufferer first time on this forum

[Sponglewang]

Hey everybody,
I'm male, 26 and was diagnosed at about 16 but have been affected since I was about 5. I'm not going to go into the type of stuff I obsess about at this point in time I just needed to come on here to see like minded ppl and what they obsess about and what helps them.

I guess sometimes I just feel so alone though I know it's not the case...
It's always been something with me thruout my entire life and I know it will never really go away and I accepted that long ago and at this point in my life i'm ok and generally happy but I'm just having a weak moment where I've been going over this crap in my head for prolly the 1000th time and while it's only been the 3rd time tonite I feel the urge to do it a 4th cos thats my number.

I'm also ADHD and was put on dexamphetamine when I was 14 and have been addicted to them since. I find when I abuse my meds (altho i'm not prescribed them anymore) I'm free of all this shit so It reminds me that its prolly a chemical thing (I'm not condoning drug use I'm just trying to explain a bit) but it's no help in the long term.

I come on here and it makes me cry to see how so many of us suffer from this bullshit but I spose it's just a release and I feel better knowing I'm not alone

 

[bubblegumbg]

Hey, nice to meet you. I'm new here as well. It's hard dealing with shit like this, I know. It seems like you work to get it to a manageable state, but it never really goes away. If you ever want someone you can talk to about it, let me know.

 

[maggie]

hi Sponglewang (i like your name )..welcome!

 

[sponglewang007]

Cheers
I was a bit down when I wrote that intro post but I feel alot better now. Thanx for sayin high and yeah... likewise If u ever wanna talk about shit I'll be here.

I'm only new on here but I have a feelijng I'll be coming here a bit. The I only other forum I visit regulary is a Sydney drum and bass forum and while I love going on there I can't really talk about this kinda stuff

Peace

 

[Rinn]

Hi sponglewang007! Welcome. I hope you find some comfort and solace here. I've suffered OCD nearly all my life. It's a relief to find people who can relate. I've never been able to talk about my condition to anyone close to me, family or friends. They just wouldn't understand or, at the very least, I am too embarrassed to tell them.

This forum is a great outlet to vent every now and then, especially, when I am going through another round of anxious thoughts and the subsequent repeating rituals that follow (sometimes, this can be endless with me).

 

[Sponglewang]

I hear ya Rinn.

Feels bloody neverending sometimes. Sometimes I look back on the stuff that I've done (ritualistic stuff) and can't help laughing at myself coz some of the shit I do involves strange sounds and wierd rocking motions moving my head from side to side and shit...

I'm cracking up now just thinking about it LOL