monkeyisland90
Active member
Life is unfair and i'll explain some personal points... But it doesn't mean i'm going to start stomping my feet and get bitter about it... i feel everything happens for a reason and i'm sure things will be very bright... but anyways here is some examples i like to share..
this is just a comparison with few people that i used to or still hang around with that doesn't suffer from SA..
ME.. I'm at school trying to learn and study really hard with no short cuts (cheating) and get good grades.. but the SA made me dropout due to the anxiety building up where i could not function no more.. and stuck working at home doing screenprinting, designing, (i prefer working outside of home but this sa prevents me...I try to avoid making excuses but that's how it is at the moment.)
FRIEND..... He goes out socializing, partying, playing sports, and relaxing and cheats his way (he told me he had some operation that worked for him and almost got caught but didn't ).. and graduates then gets a job as a property manager in real estate..
One other random unfairness
playing tennis with this one guy i somewhat know and this random guy comes and asks if he can hit with us.. I'm like yeah lets do it and try to be friendly and stuff but my anxiety symptoms shows someone who looks mad and unfriendly... while the other guy i play tennis with is telling me behind his back that he is a wierd freak and lives in some halfway house but can put on a straight face and says i can't hit with you yet but you can hit with him (meaning me).. and since he has this straight face the guy i'm hitting with now starts talking with the guy who has no interest at him whatsoever and I'm thinking to myself man i honestly have no issue with you but you're talking to someone who could care less of you... Which brings me to the point that if anyone is good actor (speak and behave well) and can conceal there motives you can go far in this life... but i also believe truth will comeout and acting won't cover it any longer...
I have other experiences also but i don't want to sit here and complain and stay bitter... cause I know there LIGHT at end of the tunnel..
Now i don't like to play the victim role and say me this me that.. but sometimes when things aren't fair I get bit mad and cannot comprehend it at all.. it's not really an envy matter as there's always someone better then you at all things but life aint fair... can i get a witness? lol
this is just a comparison with few people that i used to or still hang around with that doesn't suffer from SA..
ME.. I'm at school trying to learn and study really hard with no short cuts (cheating) and get good grades.. but the SA made me dropout due to the anxiety building up where i could not function no more.. and stuck working at home doing screenprinting, designing, (i prefer working outside of home but this sa prevents me...I try to avoid making excuses but that's how it is at the moment.)
FRIEND..... He goes out socializing, partying, playing sports, and relaxing and cheats his way (he told me he had some operation that worked for him and almost got caught but didn't ).. and graduates then gets a job as a property manager in real estate..
One other random unfairness
playing tennis with this one guy i somewhat know and this random guy comes and asks if he can hit with us.. I'm like yeah lets do it and try to be friendly and stuff but my anxiety symptoms shows someone who looks mad and unfriendly... while the other guy i play tennis with is telling me behind his back that he is a wierd freak and lives in some halfway house but can put on a straight face and says i can't hit with you yet but you can hit with him (meaning me).. and since he has this straight face the guy i'm hitting with now starts talking with the guy who has no interest at him whatsoever and I'm thinking to myself man i honestly have no issue with you but you're talking to someone who could care less of you... Which brings me to the point that if anyone is good actor (speak and behave well) and can conceal there motives you can go far in this life... but i also believe truth will comeout and acting won't cover it any longer...
I have other experiences also but i don't want to sit here and complain and stay bitter... cause I know there LIGHT at end of the tunnel..
Now i don't like to play the victim role and say me this me that.. but sometimes when things aren't fair I get bit mad and cannot comprehend it at all.. it's not really an envy matter as there's always someone better then you at all things but life aint fair... can i get a witness? lol