life is s**t....just another rant really!

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I have been feeling really scared lately....I know thats nothing new to a social phobic but i used to handle things so much better, now i feel stupidly paranoid most days.

I moved house 2 years ago to the worst street in my city, the people that live around us are awful I HATE IT! our house is so boxed in you just carnt get away from people! Im so depressed i feel like crying everyday, i hate walking down my avenue to my house i think everyone is looking at me! how shit is that!

I seem to get so fixated with certain situations or people and i get so anxiouse about seeing them when im out that i spend most of the time not knowing what the f**k im doing! And some people really notice do you ever catch strangers looking at you funny when you feel anxiouse

It looks like my son has autism he is only 3 im so worried about him....thats probably making my anxiety worse too....god im only 26 i feel 46!.........just wish i could stop feeling scared i really really hate myself :evil:

im really in need of some possitivity.....anyone got any

 

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I think id feel an idiot if i jive talked then again i feel an idiot most days so maybe u are right........in an ideal world of coarse. :wink:

 

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Do you think that people think u are weird for not talking though :?
i havnt got any friends here and i dont chat much.....do you feel really paranoid about people?........maybe i think too much

 

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Thats me too, If it wasnt for other people i would be happy in myself.

It is that feeling that people think your that mad person who doesnt go out much and doesnt say alot.

I have to start a college course in jan ( constant nagging family :x ) im really dreading it




nice chatting to you