My fate is worse than death and i m not pathetic. I considered every possible way to get of this situation and there is none. I wanted to kill myself but somebody will probably kill me sooner, recently i began to seriously confront with too many people , mainly random, to push my "luck". "Do something good and you will eat his shit later", almost every human is like that. If u give a helping hand to someone , later he will gossip you because he couldnt manage on his own. I saw that this is true. I was trying to help, bein really nice and everyone shitted on me. Like really nice, not to help because of hell and heaven and fairy tales.
Everyone who i know and was good is 1) dead 2) disappeared 3) in madhouse, the home for people with no luck. "Fuck armageddon this is hell" i say.