I used to get that and every now and then do.
The thing is that some people I have known have had their own eyes start to get teary just because mine were! ...My sense is that it is just a symptom of shy sensitivity -and a lot more people are probably prone to it.
Rather than describe yourself as having an ill mind, maybe you are just highly sensitive and are therefore more emotionally vulnerable, perhaps also with a compulsive aspect.
I really do think that it only takes a slight difference from 'the norm' for a person to fall into becoming an outcast. This is why expressions like: "the vicious circle" are used and why also their is prejudice in the world. -It is because these so-called important differences in status -eg, a socalled outcast or mentally ill person vs the so-called 'normal' and well adjusted person- all these big or significant differences arise from small emotional differences. -This is why we can spiral out of control, lose our self esteem, get trapped in a cycle of thinking and feeling negatively. And it is why their is prejudice towards people with in such circumstances of lowered status ...because intuitively we all know that the underlying causes for these differences in status are relatively small.
Look even at how anxiety is perpetuated when a person tries to fight it and control it. This is another observation that the fear and denial of some weakness or defect will eventually actually create and also sustain it. But accepting it and not seeing it as defective or weak in and of it self means we make a weakness get smaller. We can do this when we realise that any weakness or negative trait doesn't exist as separate from an accompanying strength. -One way of being exists with the other and there exists two sides or opinions to anything.
And so even when we are face to face with our apparent weakness and lack, we can remember that always there exists with this an equally positive side.
And knowing how life is -that inward emotional differences become exagerated and magnified on the outside- makes it easier to not be deceived when it appears that we are outcasts and weired and abject.
This really is true. A bit of observation of life and people proves that all the above is real and is what really exists.
And I think that it is worth while to remind ourselves of this -because making our way towards believing in it can certainly be challenging at times; and so it is just good to be reminded of what the higher truth is and of what underlies everything in the world. -Like how spiritualists say- all of us are meant to be whole in this moment and seeing and believing how we already are whole (with good sides to our bad ...sides!) makes this bigger truth happen quicker. Because eventually it will happen sooner or later.
...ok, I've really gone off topic this time!!! ...excuse me: I get a bit excited sometimes!!!!
