I'm just at a loss for what's going to become of me if something doesn't change. I'm even starting to wonder if perhaps this is AvPD, because i rarely get anxiety symptoms while around people. I've just got into the habit of not getting out and mixing with people, classic avoidance behaviour i know. I really want to force myself to do something tomorrow, but i know i won't when the time actually comes, i won't. I'm 20 soon, and the fact that i've never had a girlfriend, or even came close, is really getting me down. Especially when tonight i was with my dad shopping in a (quiet) shop, and i realised i don't even have the confidence to lift my gaze off the floor and actually look at the (cute) checkout girl. What are my chances when i'm obviously going to come across as not interested like that? I can see why so many people turn to alcohol.
But like i was saying, i've always thought to myself that i've never really fit the criteria for social-anxiety. I don't shake, my heart doesn't beat fast, however i DO blush, VERY easily :: I don't get panic attacks, and i don't think i've ever had one either, so it's making me wonder if it's something else. I've been reading, perhaps AvPD? I just avoid contact from day to day, but really want to do something about it now ::
But like i was saying, i've always thought to myself that i've never really fit the criteria for social-anxiety. I don't shake, my heart doesn't beat fast, however i DO blush, VERY easily :: I don't get panic attacks, and i don't think i've ever had one either, so it's making me wonder if it's something else. I've been reading, perhaps AvPD? I just avoid contact from day to day, but really want to do something about it now ::