allieaust
Active member
Hi guys, ive been on this forum some time/ year/s ago.
I suffer pretty bad with this social phobia thing. I feel like im going crazy because i live in my mind and have no friends. I dont drive because i cant afford it at the moment ( im sacing up to move so that i have a financial safety net) and i live an hours walk out from town, there is no public transport and so to get anywhere i virtually have to walk. Its difficult at odd hours and in the winter and usually i feel so inadequate around other people so i tend to not join anything, not that there is anything here though, i live in a small country town with the population mostly over 60 year olds.
I wonder if anyone else is in similar circumstances?
Ive been saving so that i can finally move out of this place and situation, but it takes time and in that time i feel like im going down hill each day. The only social thing that i do is my grocery shopping and it makes me very depressed ,
you see everyone with friends and the likes and your in your own world, not knowing anyone.
A few years ago i met a guy online and made huge changes, moved interstate and that really scarred me because the guy was very emotionally abusive and criticized everything about me so bluntly and without emotion and used me for sex pretty much, besides that it was the best time in my life as i was challenging everything and going out everyday and interacting with people rather than the situation i am in now.
It took a whole year to get over the abuse and i got very, very ill with spending most of the year never sleeping in the nighttime.
Its been so hard to get over abuse, it totally can screw you up, particuarly if you havent been around people in a long time, besides family.
I wonder if anyone has been thru anything similar?
I suffer pretty bad with this social phobia thing. I feel like im going crazy because i live in my mind and have no friends. I dont drive because i cant afford it at the moment ( im sacing up to move so that i have a financial safety net) and i live an hours walk out from town, there is no public transport and so to get anywhere i virtually have to walk. Its difficult at odd hours and in the winter and usually i feel so inadequate around other people so i tend to not join anything, not that there is anything here though, i live in a small country town with the population mostly over 60 year olds.
I wonder if anyone else is in similar circumstances?
Ive been saving so that i can finally move out of this place and situation, but it takes time and in that time i feel like im going down hill each day. The only social thing that i do is my grocery shopping and it makes me very depressed ,
you see everyone with friends and the likes and your in your own world, not knowing anyone.
A few years ago i met a guy online and made huge changes, moved interstate and that really scarred me because the guy was very emotionally abusive and criticized everything about me so bluntly and without emotion and used me for sex pretty much, besides that it was the best time in my life as i was challenging everything and going out everyday and interacting with people rather than the situation i am in now.
It took a whole year to get over the abuse and i got very, very ill with spending most of the year never sleeping in the nighttime.
Its been so hard to get over abuse, it totally can screw you up, particuarly if you havent been around people in a long time, besides family.
I wonder if anyone has been thru anything similar?