eso
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When I was younger I had all these symptoms.. when I was really young, about 5-8 I always thought an evil witch was watching me from somewhere and I had to do things or she'd hurt me. So I had to go back and turn a light on or off, or I had to go through a doorway the right way or I'd have to do a certain event like squat down or touch something or whatever. etc. I don't know if that's something anyone else had.
Anyways, that witch thing stopped as I turned into an older kid but I had to do things like if I tapped on a chair 5 times w/my left hand i'd have to do my right the same number on the exact area on the other side. Or if I turned around I'd have to 'unwind' myself and turn the other way. Or if I touched something I'd have to touch it exactly the right way. There were tons upon tons of other stuff I did, I can't even begin to list all the dumb things I did concerning symmetry, counting, and doing things related to all of that.
I never had any issues with cleanliness, but I simply cannot stand anything on me at all. I can't have anything of a weird texture on me. I have to keep my hands clear or I will go crazy. I can't stand seeing similar things on others, like mud or slime or whatever.
These things were constant. It was every minute of every hour of every day if I wasn't focused on something else entirely to distract me.
Now here's the weird part... all of these symptoms just kinda disappeared around when I was about 20ish. I'm now in my 30s. I still can "feel" these things, and I remember *exactly* how they used to feel, but I just don't do them anymore at all. I still have issues with stuff on me/my hands but it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. I also still do a few very mildly OCD things but so infrequently it doesn't affect my life at all.
I didn't do anything conscious to stop these things, they just stopped. I wasn't getting the "reward" for doing them in my head anymore. I have no clue why this is. My question, is this normal or heard of? What the heck happened to me?
Anyways, that witch thing stopped as I turned into an older kid but I had to do things like if I tapped on a chair 5 times w/my left hand i'd have to do my right the same number on the exact area on the other side. Or if I turned around I'd have to 'unwind' myself and turn the other way. Or if I touched something I'd have to touch it exactly the right way. There were tons upon tons of other stuff I did, I can't even begin to list all the dumb things I did concerning symmetry, counting, and doing things related to all of that.
I never had any issues with cleanliness, but I simply cannot stand anything on me at all. I can't have anything of a weird texture on me. I have to keep my hands clear or I will go crazy. I can't stand seeing similar things on others, like mud or slime or whatever.
These things were constant. It was every minute of every hour of every day if I wasn't focused on something else entirely to distract me.
Now here's the weird part... all of these symptoms just kinda disappeared around when I was about 20ish. I'm now in my 30s. I still can "feel" these things, and I remember *exactly* how they used to feel, but I just don't do them anymore at all. I still have issues with stuff on me/my hands but it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. I also still do a few very mildly OCD things but so infrequently it doesn't affect my life at all.
I didn't do anything conscious to stop these things, they just stopped. I wasn't getting the "reward" for doing them in my head anymore. I have no clue why this is. My question, is this normal or heard of? What the heck happened to me?
