Yep...i have gotten compliments from people saying i am smart before, but i honestly feel like a moron. I don't see how i could be considered smart when i suck at everything. It's not like i did good in school either. I barely passed my math classes in high school and i just dropped out of college after only a few weeks of class, but that was because of my anxiety. I literally feel so worthless lately. Today was so ****ing hard, i woke up to a horrific nightmare in the middle of the afternoon (yeah that's when i've been waking up lately) and then for the rest of the day i've been on the computer realizing how much of a pathetic loser i am and feeling more and more depressed and hopeless. I sometimes don't feel like anyone understands. Even regarding people on this site with SA, i feel like i am doing so much worse than the majority...Is this how the rest of my days are going to be? I'm only 20 and i'm already a worthless hermit. I don't feel like i am good at literally anything. Man...idk wut to do...This sucks so ****ing bad....i'm literally at the point where even in my dreams i am contemplating suicide.
