quizkiddonnie
Member
Hello I'm Blake. I'm having a really hard time getting over social anxiety and learning how to interact with people, especially girls. I feel like there is something everyone understands about me that they can't explain to me and I feel stupid and immature. I want people to respect me but I'm so withdrawn and it seems like the only way people know how to interact with me is to try and get under my skin. When I talk to girls a lot of the time I feel like I'm doing something wrong and a lot of girls just suddenly stop talking to me and ignore me completely leaving me clueless. I feel very discouraged. I'm uncomfortable with male gender roles and I reject the term "man" to describe me. I feel like this further adds to other people getting the sense that I'm immature but a lot of the traits displayed by men such as aggressiveness, testosterone, having muscles, talking in a deep voice, for some reason it bothers me. I don't like that girls can just wait around and guys will approach them but if I wait around almost always nothing ever happens. Maybe it's instinct-based that guys are always expected to make the first move but I find it ridiculously unfair and I have a hard time accepting it. I feel like girls have it easy and as a guy I have to constantly face rejection and competition with other males to get what I want. It is so terrifying. Well, that's all I can think of to write about right now.