Jay29
Member
Hello everyone,
I want to start off by saying this, I almost burst into tears when i found this website seriously lol! It's a great site!
I should really thank this girl in my HD 101 class, she called me arrogant and so i went home looked up the word and there was a comment on a website that said people who are shy or introverted sometimes come across as arrogant.. I wasn't sure about that but i guess it made sense when i thought about it.
For a while now i knew that something wasn't right with me i had been getting really anxious and nervous for no reason at the age of 16 and it started getting worse and worse as the years went by, I started loosing friends etc. But i had no clue that this was a real disorder so i looked it up and sure enough i had almost all symptoms! every single social interaction i found myself in i would start sweating, hands would sometimes tremor or shake heart would beat fast, i would think "everyone is watching me!" or something similar like that.
i know i'm an Introvert and i <3 that sh!t i don't care! I enjoy kickin' thoughts around in my head by myself or reading books alone and all that good stuff. But the problem is SAD i don't know how to cope with it, Sometimes i think i should just give in and let it happen because i'm doomed with it for the rest of my life! and other times i want to try and get over it but when i do try to speak up and out it's usually in a soft or timid voice or i say something stupid, So i prefer to stay silent. Now in America i know that the people who Succeed are the extroverts AKA the loud mouths! And if you don't speak up you're considered to be stupid, This is not fair or right to belittle someone because they have a disorder, and it's hard to say "hey Dumb@ss i have a Social Anxiety Disorder!".. ya know?
And to make matters worse i just started community college..[deep sigh!] It's complete crap i tell ya! Seriously, maybe if i went to a Uni. it might be better because the people are all around my age. [Sigh] i honestly don't know what to do guys, i want to finish college because my goal is to get my B.A. and i'm willing to endure it just to achieve this goal but seriously this is killing me mentally.
Really sorry for the long first post but i thought i should tell my story.
It makes me feel a little better to know that there are others out there who have the same thing as me and hopefully we can figure out a way to overcome this...Or maybe not lol.
And if you've made it this far Thank you for taking the time to read this.
I want to start off by saying this, I almost burst into tears when i found this website seriously lol! It's a great site!
I should really thank this girl in my HD 101 class, she called me arrogant and so i went home looked up the word and there was a comment on a website that said people who are shy or introverted sometimes come across as arrogant.. I wasn't sure about that but i guess it made sense when i thought about it.
For a while now i knew that something wasn't right with me i had been getting really anxious and nervous for no reason at the age of 16 and it started getting worse and worse as the years went by, I started loosing friends etc. But i had no clue that this was a real disorder so i looked it up and sure enough i had almost all symptoms! every single social interaction i found myself in i would start sweating, hands would sometimes tremor or shake heart would beat fast, i would think "everyone is watching me!" or something similar like that.
i know i'm an Introvert and i <3 that sh!t i don't care! I enjoy kickin' thoughts around in my head by myself or reading books alone and all that good stuff. But the problem is SAD i don't know how to cope with it, Sometimes i think i should just give in and let it happen because i'm doomed with it for the rest of my life! and other times i want to try and get over it but when i do try to speak up and out it's usually in a soft or timid voice or i say something stupid, So i prefer to stay silent. Now in America i know that the people who Succeed are the extroverts AKA the loud mouths! And if you don't speak up you're considered to be stupid, This is not fair or right to belittle someone because they have a disorder, and it's hard to say "hey Dumb@ss i have a Social Anxiety Disorder!".. ya know?
And to make matters worse i just started community college..[deep sigh!] It's complete crap i tell ya! Seriously, maybe if i went to a Uni. it might be better because the people are all around my age. [Sigh] i honestly don't know what to do guys, i want to finish college because my goal is to get my B.A. and i'm willing to endure it just to achieve this goal but seriously this is killing me mentally.
Really sorry for the long first post but i thought i should tell my story.
It makes me feel a little better to know that there are others out there who have the same thing as me and hopefully we can figure out a way to overcome this...Or maybe not lol.
And if you've made it this far Thank you for taking the time to read this.
