summersun08
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My boyfriend and I haven't been together very long..about 2 months, but I have very strong feelings for him and he's very important to me. My problem is that, for whatever reason, my OCD has gotten much worse lately and i've been having obsessive thoughts, mainly of a sexual nature, that freak me out and disgust me.
In addition to dealing with these thoughts, I feel guilty about having them because I feel like i'm a bad person. I'm scared to death that if i ever told my bf about my thoughts he would freak out and leave, so obviously I don't tell him, but i feel like i'm hiding the fact that i'm a bad person from him. Whenever he compliments me, i feel like i don't deserve it because of this. I really want our relationship to last, but i don't know how to get over the feeling that i'm deceiving him. He knows I have OCD, but i don't know that he'd be able to comprehend it enough to realize that the thoughts are a result of it.
Does anyone have a similar situation or know how to deal with this??
In addition to dealing with these thoughts, I feel guilty about having them because I feel like i'm a bad person. I'm scared to death that if i ever told my bf about my thoughts he would freak out and leave, so obviously I don't tell him, but i feel like i'm hiding the fact that i'm a bad person from him. Whenever he compliments me, i feel like i don't deserve it because of this. I really want our relationship to last, but i don't know how to get over the feeling that i'm deceiving him. He knows I have OCD, but i don't know that he'd be able to comprehend it enough to realize that the thoughts are a result of it.
Does anyone have a similar situation or know how to deal with this??