Infatuation is the source of my adrenaline rush.

Beyond Timid

Active member
I know this is really lame, but I feel so depressed when I have no one to crush on.

Crushes to me are suspenseful and exciting because you never know if they like you back or not. And getting them to notice you makes the game all the more fun.

When they start liking or go out with someone else, my mood completely dies down. The cycle starts over with another person, and it just keeps going on like that.

I want to find another source of happiness. Being like this sickens me. If you guys don't mind, can you tell me what you do to make yourself feel better?
 
I think perhaps you need to think about why you want a relationship, before finding someone you want a relationship with, if that makes sense. It's the only advice i can give, sorry
 

Beyond Timid

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I already know why. It's because I feel lonely and there's not really anyone who I can relate to. I just don't want a good-looking guy; I want a friend, too.

But I can't date. So yeah.

(Thanks for answering by the way; really appreciate it.) :)
 

carecrab

Well-known member
I can really relate to this. I've had crushes on like almost all my friends, and i thought either i was a slut (which is totally possible lol) or the crushes just meant something else :i.e. that i was reaally really looking for someone to care about me, and to share my soul with. Do you have a person like this in your life?

The crushes bring certain excitement, but more pain for me. Because of the insecurity i get from it, not knowing if that someone has the same feelings.

I'm pretty vague sorry
 

Beyond Timid

Active member
Haha I'm not a slut (I can't even talk to guys without looking stupid in the first place, and I dress modestly and all), but my friends call me a player. I don't think I'm a player since I highly doubt any guy I've crushed on sincerely cared about me. Maybe just one, but probably just as a friend.

I do have people like that, but it's one thing to care and another to accept. :/

They do cause a lot of pain, hence why I go to someone new when the pain has reached its climax.

I didn't think you were vague; thank you for responding!
 
wow i'm not the only one that does this. Sometimes my crushes are the only thing that keeps me going. I know I will never get anyone but that first week of infatuation is what does it. It's horrible when it dies down. But then eventually a new crush comes out of nowhere and the spark is back. I just love the feeling. It's like no other.
 

Conspiracy

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Well......I guess I understand. When you like someone, every single thing that you'll be doing with them will feel great 10 times more than anything.
idk, I might be like that. But I'm more cautious, insecure, and unsure. If I like someone I start having doubts about them "Maybe they like me due to such and such reason and they'll hate me if they got to know the real me", or they might just be liking me as a really good friend and I'll be the idiot crushing on them. Then someone else will come along and I'll just attach myself to them and the cycle will repeat, which will eventually lead to depression such as now. Oh god, wall of text, sorry don't mind me I just needed to type.
 

TheSanctuarian

Well-known member
wow i'm not the only one that does this. Sometimes my crushes are the only thing that keeps me going. I know I will never get anyone but that first week of infatuation is what does it. It's horrible when it dies down. But then eventually a new crush comes out of nowhere and the spark is back. I just love the feeling. It's like no other.

I never thought about it before, but I think I have this problem too. I once thought I really liked this girl, when we diecided to make a go of it, it was over in a week. I guess it was because sub-consciously I realised I had won the battle.

I am a horrible and shallow person ::(:
 

WeirdyMcGee

Well-known member
aww~ I've never had a crush on someone. I hope it's not the source of my depression! XD


I guess the way you put it seems harmless enough.
It also sounds a bit like... 'looking for love in all the wrong places' if taken a certain way.
It doesn't mean you're a 'slut' at all! You have feelings for these people~ but it does beg to question; do you depend on love from other people to love yourself?
That can be very dangerous.
 
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