Impossible to be yourself.

[T T T]

Do you ever feel like it is impossible to be yourself in a social situation?

Do you sometimes feel physically unable to be the 'person' that is talking to you inside your head?

Do you sometimes just want to be alone because you understand yourself and accept yourself better than most others?

Do you ever walk into a public place with someone and become a whole new person as you enter that place?

Do you ever feel like any friends you have made aren't really your friends because they aren't friends with you, but the fake person you become in a social situation?

Tell me about it.

 

[ilovenoodles]

All answered yes. I am not myself in public. It's horrible. When i am all alone i can be myself or when i feel happy or have some motivation but that is not enough. It gets too much sometimes. I'd be glad to live in another world where i can be myself.

 

[caringsoul]

i would need a miracle, if i was to be my self in social situation. i would have to be drunk or taken some sort of happy pills or energy drink..... to show my true personality.

the would be me, would be lively and charamistic, pulling silly facial expression and guesture confidently without nerves. and expressing confident body language. which i dont do, i tend to hunch, neck out and just be stiff :/ ...... which comes out naturally, i try to be confident.. its getting there.. i mean i did something recently, which opened me up a bit. but maybe now it has closed me back in... im only the real me in my mind.

sometime i do feel like being left alone because of my sa and depression.. i dont have that mood for anything upbuilding to add to conversation. im just a depressed freak. that needs to start looking at the sun in the eye.

my friends they know i have sa.. they just think im shy. they still be friends with me ... but we not close though, so it can feel like we aint friends...

 

[Zav]

A while back to be that "new person" I'd try to be more outgoing and it was noticeably fake. So I went back to naturally being quiet, and just accepted it, and I'm very comfortable with it. Honestly I've made more (and better) friends as a quiet guy, selective and genuine in my conversation. Most people that I met as a fake socialite faded away.

 

[Anti Matter]

I was like this once, I changed and became even more unhappy with myself.

So now I am me and I don't communicate with all my past "friends".

 

[Moon4]

Do you ever feel like it is impossible to be yourself in a social situation?

Do you sometimes feel physically unable to be the 'person' that is talking to you inside your head?

Do you sometimes just want to be alone because you understand yourself and accept yourself better than most others?

Do you ever walk into a public place with someone and become a whole new person as you enter that place?

Do you ever feel like any friends you have made aren't really your friends because they aren't friends with you, but the fake person you become in a social situation?

Tell me about it.

Yes, I do.

Yes, I always do.

Yes, I do.

Yes, I do.

YES; I do!

 

[Shant]

Yes, all the above. I hate it so freaking much.

The real me, is cheery, clumsy, hyperactive, and friendly.

But I can't be that and it sucks. Instead, I'm over-anxious and scared to death around others, hiding this with another mask that makes me look like some cool, calm and collected, laid-back person. But both of those two are not me, not at all.

People I've gotten to know this way, are people I distance myself from because that's not me they know, that's someone else!

It's like the number one identity crisis responsible for my loneliness and lack of genuine friends, all thanks to social phobia. Agrrawr.

 

[PandaBear]

Yes.

I feel like when I'm talking to people I'm fake or something. It's not the real me. Even my voice changes. I become this boring, serious, monotone creature.

When I was younger or when I'm by myself I'm silly, crazy, adventurous, and just fun, but I've lost all the people with whom I can be that person with. Sometimes I'm not even sure if I'm capable of being that person anymore.
I crave a life where I can be that person all the time, but my anxiety keeps me from it.