Imp of the Mind -- Disturbing Thoughts

[Zipper]

Is anyone's social anxiety also combined with another anxiety disorder -- obsessive compulsive disorder? If so, what are your OCD behaviours and fears? Do any of you have private, distressing thoughts that plague you -- like a fear that you will say in your mind "Sex with the Baby Jesus"?

Let us know!

 

[Leithliseach]

I have had intrusive thoughts or "Pure OCD" for several years now and have gone through some shitty times when I thought I'd never be able to get out of it but for nearly 2 years now I've been gradually recovering and it's nowhere near as bad as it used to be.
Remember it's all OCD, nothing more. It indicates nothing about you or your character.
EVERYBODY int the world CAN and DOES think unpleasant, violent, weird, "blasphemous" etc. etc. thoughts. They understand they are just thoughts, ideas - nothing. They have no importance, are of no consequense, reveal nothing about a person's character, desires etc.

 

[4myself]

Great way of putting it Leithliseach!. After all it is what we do and not what we think that makes us what we are. I will try and keep what you said in mind next time I get any disturbing thoughts!.

 

[Leithliseach]

One of the main "breakthroughs" for me was simply understanding that absolutely everyone can nd does think think this kind of stuff. I used to feel that I was perverted or mad to be even able to think some of this shite.

 

[rko74]

disturbing thoughts

Lol this may seem a bit strange, but sometimes if i talk to a semi attractive women.Say for instance today i went to this interview for this lifeskills course im going to try in march. 8O There was two women interviewing me.The other was semi attractive, she would smile etc.Well when i was making eye contact with this women i was thinking a few times she aint bad looking.I was worried she would think or notice i was attracted or aroused by her! LOL sorry crazy thought i know, it must be the testosterone injections im taking once per month. haha!

 

[Zipper]

Leithliseach, what were your thoughts that were so disturbing, if I be so bold?

 

[Zipper]

Re: disturbing thoughts

Lol this may seem a bit strange, but sometimes if i talk to a semi attractive women.Say for instance today i went to this interview for this lifeskills course im going to try in march. 8O There was two women interviewing me.The other was semi attractive, she would smile etc.Well when i was making eye contact with this women i was thinking a few times she aint bad looking.I was worried she would think or notice i was attracted or aroused by her! LOL sorry crazy thought i know, it must be the testosterone injections im taking once per month. haha!

Man, if every woman could read my mind, I would prolly be in prison right now. I can't walk past a hot woman without wild thoughts escaping, especially if she has big breasts.

 

[Leithliseach]

The thoughts that plague people with "pure OCD" depend on the individual and can vary enormously. Basically whatever upsets or offends the person. So, somebody strongly religious may be plagued with "blasphemous" thoughts/images eg. having sex with God, the words "Jesus is a fucker" or anything really that occurs to them that they feel the need to atone for or "neutralise" with a mental ritual. With the above examples the ritual could be replacing the thought of having sex with God with one of praying before God. Every person would have thier own rituals.
The most common themes are violence, sex and religious as above.
The fear basically is: that thinking these types of things is abnormal and reveales something about the person thinking them such as "if I'm thinking this then I must have the desire or capability to do it" or/and
The fear that thinking something (eg. a family member being murdered) might somehow make it happen and completing the ritual undoes or "covers up" the thought, preventing it from happening.
My own thoughts were varied, violence was the usual theme.

 

[weedle]

Yes sometimes I have thoughts of stuff that is horrible and I am so against then why would it pop in my mind. then I think I must be going crazy. Bad thoughts usually lead to me having a panic attack.

 

[allanboy]

When i was at my grandmothers house, i was holding my belt to put it in my pants, my grandfather was sitting in front of me, and my mom was outside talking to someone. This kind of movie ran through my head. Me getting the belt by one end and hitting my bald, almost purple aged grandfather´s forehead with the belt iron end thingy. With the loud PLIM, my mom looks at him and starts screaming and crying(couldnt decide if it was "why did you do this" or "DAD").
Couldnt think of anything beyond that.

The feel of it. Just a whole set of possibilities, and me holding that belt like some sort of flail. Already had the strike strenght and distance calculated ready.

Went to my room and put the belt in my pants.

Damn this feeling, so, horribly momentaneous good.

 

[Zipper]

I was walking up the stairs behind a really cute girl and I had to forcibly resist the impulse to touch her generous bottom. :lol:

I've also held babies and the idea popped in my head that I didn't want to throw the fragile baby down.

I've resisted an impulse to swat my friends with my hands.

I think I need to play some really rough and physical game to work out my anxieties.