I'm scared for my life

[dannyboy65]

Everyday my schizophrenia just gets worse. I'm starting to just stare at things and let the voices talk. I can't even concentrate at work anymore cause they start to scare me that much I had to get off work early 3 times cause of them and I think works getting pissed about it. It's so hard to live everyday, I just think about suicide all the time. I can't control my mood or anything, one moment I'm happy next moment I'm severely depressed. I can't control anything in my life anymore. I'm always worrying, and I'm always depressed. I just can't do anything right anymore. The voices always tell me to slit my wrists, they make it hard to do anything right. My dad is trying is best to help me, this girl I really like is trying to help me, my friend is trying, my moms trying nothing is working. They still haunt me everyday, every morning I wake up and I feel like today would be the day I kill myself. But I never do something is holding me back and I know what is. Its her I can't bare to do that to her let her go through that suffering, I can't bare to put my family through that suffering. But I'm scared one day I'll give up all together and go through with it. Death is always on my mind and it scares me....

 

[coyote]

have you talked to your doctor?

are you taking your meds?

 

[dannyboy65]

I take my meds every night like I'm supposed to but I think I grown a tolerance to them cause they don't really work anymore

 

[coyote]

you should tell your doctor - sounds like he needs to make an adjustment

 

[Lowlight]

You must have the strength of a thousand suns in you if you are hanging in there with these conditions!

I can’t imagine the pain you are feeling. I’m not an expert in your condition, but what struck me is that you don’t want to kill yourself because it would cause others pain. That is very noble and you should commend yourself for it. That is something to reflect on and take strength from.

I’m rambling at this point, but whatever positive vibes I can send out are headed in your direction. Find Peace.

 

[theslowesthand]

If you are able, there are of course alternative treatments/remedies out there, that you could look into.

Such as some shown in this video Natural Cure For Schizophrenia Without Drugs - YouTube

Also i'm a fan of the Hulda Clarke "zapper". I may at some point try it out to see if it helps with my depression & mood problems.
Search "schizophrenia" on this page >>> The Dr Clark Digital Zapper CAFL list: Disease Frequencies: Letter D

 

[mondaydecember]

Try to communicate with the voices in your head. I know this sounds weird and probably lunatic, but like, if they tell you to kill yourself, you shut them up with a witty comeback, like, there won't be anybody more awesome than me or something like that. Like treat the voices as some kind of annoying twerp, or your annoying best friend.