Dr. Doom
Well-known member
I'm not sure why I am posting this. It could be because I want attention or I someone to hear this.
Either way I am posting
Well okay, ever since 8th grade I've had increasingly bad social skills. After 9th grade I moved to Minnesota from Texas. I thought I was going to live with my mom and dad, but latter in the summer my brother in law told me they were divorced (living with sister's family over summer). I still thought my mom was going to come up but she didn't. So now I only live with my dad in my house. I've always been closer to my mom though.
When 10th grade started out it was terrible. I pushed away anyone who would talk to me and I made no friends. I have PE all year as well. Now I am by no means obese, but I am definatley overweight and out of shape. So it was extremely embarresing. It was a verry lonely year.
This past summer I went back to Texas to visit my mom. She said I could move down there with my aunt. My dad said no. I was going to get a job that summer but I freaked out and hung up on the phone of a guy calling me for a interview. I begged my dad to let me just stay home all summer.
Now this year is no different from last. I still deflect everyone who will speak to me. I have yet to make any friends. Since this summer I have become very depressed. I don't have any real ambition. I don't have any hope. I don't have any interests or hobbies. My grades are C's and D's.
This winter break I am going to Texas again. Afterwards I think I'm going to kill myself. I just don't want to live anymore. Everyday it gets worse. All I want to do is sleep now.
I just wanted to post this. I'm not really sure what to do.
Either way I am posting
Well okay, ever since 8th grade I've had increasingly bad social skills. After 9th grade I moved to Minnesota from Texas. I thought I was going to live with my mom and dad, but latter in the summer my brother in law told me they were divorced (living with sister's family over summer). I still thought my mom was going to come up but she didn't. So now I only live with my dad in my house. I've always been closer to my mom though.
When 10th grade started out it was terrible. I pushed away anyone who would talk to me and I made no friends. I have PE all year as well. Now I am by no means obese, but I am definatley overweight and out of shape. So it was extremely embarresing. It was a verry lonely year.
This past summer I went back to Texas to visit my mom. She said I could move down there with my aunt. My dad said no. I was going to get a job that summer but I freaked out and hung up on the phone of a guy calling me for a interview. I begged my dad to let me just stay home all summer.
Now this year is no different from last. I still deflect everyone who will speak to me. I have yet to make any friends. Since this summer I have become very depressed. I don't have any real ambition. I don't have any hope. I don't have any interests or hobbies. My grades are C's and D's.
This winter break I am going to Texas again. Afterwards I think I'm going to kill myself. I just don't want to live anymore. Everyday it gets worse. All I want to do is sleep now.
I just wanted to post this. I'm not really sure what to do.