Bendy
New member
hi... first sorry if my english bad...
i really feel relief that i found this site... i've been searching all people with SA problem like me to communicate with, for years, but never find one... but now i finally joined this community.... this SA really frustrating, i go to shop, shopkeeper think iam suspicious, like didnt bring money and want to shoplift, my family really embarrassed whenever people talk about me cause im a weirdo with this SA, so my family didn't bring me out often... but the most suffer thing is at school life, school is supposed to be social gathering place for normal people, but i think it is a hell because i had this SA... at school, im sit alone at my desk, and the most annoying is when the teacher told the students to make discuss party, really i hate that moment, cause my friend just one or two...
i dropped out on my 2nd year high school, i just can't stand it anymore, now i should have been at 3rd year if im not dropped out... but now i planning to go into college this february, i followed government test for people with study problem in exchange being dropped out at high school.... now my SA is getting better because im using drug, i.e. fluoxetine... i hope i can even get more better by the time im joining college so that i can enjoy social life like before i got this SA problem.... oh yeah, i think im getting this SA since im in 3rd year elementary school... i remember how i got this SA... first since im baby i got bad past, my parents always fighting... so i grew with anxiety feeling for my parents, whenever i think when my parents stop fighting my anxiety grew more and more bigger.... my parents affair at climax when i was in 2nd year elementary school, thats because my father went bankrupt, at that time i might take one meal a day because either no food or i dont have appetitie.... so my body just got really shrink, and my friends often discriminated me because my skinned body, and my family economic problem... and things that makes even worse, my brother won't take me playing outside house, cause he embarrased to bring me out.. i remember it well that contribute to my SA.. but now my family economy rise again, but my SA is still here haunting me..thanks to this site i can pour out with people that can understand my situation very much, since this is SA community....
i really feel relief that i found this site... i've been searching all people with SA problem like me to communicate with, for years, but never find one... but now i finally joined this community.... this SA really frustrating, i go to shop, shopkeeper think iam suspicious, like didnt bring money and want to shoplift, my family really embarrassed whenever people talk about me cause im a weirdo with this SA, so my family didn't bring me out often... but the most suffer thing is at school life, school is supposed to be social gathering place for normal people, but i think it is a hell because i had this SA... at school, im sit alone at my desk, and the most annoying is when the teacher told the students to make discuss party, really i hate that moment, cause my friend just one or two...
i dropped out on my 2nd year high school, i just can't stand it anymore, now i should have been at 3rd year if im not dropped out... but now i planning to go into college this february, i followed government test for people with study problem in exchange being dropped out at high school.... now my SA is getting better because im using drug, i.e. fluoxetine... i hope i can even get more better by the time im joining college so that i can enjoy social life like before i got this SA problem.... oh yeah, i think im getting this SA since im in 3rd year elementary school... i remember how i got this SA... first since im baby i got bad past, my parents always fighting... so i grew with anxiety feeling for my parents, whenever i think when my parents stop fighting my anxiety grew more and more bigger.... my parents affair at climax when i was in 2nd year elementary school, thats because my father went bankrupt, at that time i might take one meal a day because either no food or i dont have appetitie.... so my body just got really shrink, and my friends often discriminated me because my skinned body, and my family economic problem... and things that makes even worse, my brother won't take me playing outside house, cause he embarrased to bring me out.. i remember it well that contribute to my SA.. but now my family economy rise again, but my SA is still here haunting me..thanks to this site i can pour out with people that can understand my situation very much, since this is SA community....
