I just thought I would have a grumble. Its not me being down with regard SA, I am making good progress with it, but its sunday evening and faced with another tedious week of work ahead, I am just really bored of this routine. I want so much fun, exciting times, a great social life, meet someone nice, do the nicest things, have the happiest times. I mean ok I know I have to work, but I just wish I had some sort of life outside of work. I used to have a great social life at college and university and met women. It was great. But now in my late 20s, I don't have a social life anymore, I have friends around the country, but they all settled down now.
People I chat to like friends, people at work - they always have so much happening in their lifes - holidays, parties, concerts, nights out, days out, seeing friends, etc. I have a brilliant friend over the internet, she is so nice, she lives abroad and she seems to always be doing the nicest things, I end up having to lie most of the time to make out I do great things too. I would do if I had the opportunities - but doing all these things by yourself is no fun - i.e. restaurants, holidays, parties by yourself?, concerts, sports events, nights out, etc - you can't do these things by yourself.
I just feel I have reach a point whereby I know now that things will not change unless I change (i.e. in terms of being confident - which I am working so hard on) and making things happen.
My aim is just to try and overcome SA and be confident and take it from there. I feel the world will be my oyster once I overcome SA, I love my personality, I know I am a likeable person, I get on great with anyone. But being anxious approaching people, afraid of making the first moves (all my SA and lack of confidence is because of zero self esteem because of years of bullying, name calling, insults, etc) means things just never change. But life is way too short to live like this, I am going to kick myself so much later in life for all the lost years and all the missed opportunities.
I am just frustrated. I know what I want in life - i.e. social life, someone nice, happiest times doing the coolest and nicest things. I mean I cannot remember the last time I woke up on a morning feeling excited about the day ahead. I cannot remember the last time I had something exciting on the horizon to look forward to.
Does anyone share this frustration in their life? If so please reply, maybe we can encourage one another to do new things and make things happen. I mean don't you ever think that if only we had someone to push us and make us do the things we should be doing in order to progress in life, that things would be so much easier. Well I would be willing to help those who are willing to help me too.
Sorry for the rant.
People I chat to like friends, people at work - they always have so much happening in their lifes - holidays, parties, concerts, nights out, days out, seeing friends, etc. I have a brilliant friend over the internet, she is so nice, she lives abroad and she seems to always be doing the nicest things, I end up having to lie most of the time to make out I do great things too. I would do if I had the opportunities - but doing all these things by yourself is no fun - i.e. restaurants, holidays, parties by yourself?, concerts, sports events, nights out, etc - you can't do these things by yourself.
I just feel I have reach a point whereby I know now that things will not change unless I change (i.e. in terms of being confident - which I am working so hard on) and making things happen.
My aim is just to try and overcome SA and be confident and take it from there. I feel the world will be my oyster once I overcome SA, I love my personality, I know I am a likeable person, I get on great with anyone. But being anxious approaching people, afraid of making the first moves (all my SA and lack of confidence is because of zero self esteem because of years of bullying, name calling, insults, etc) means things just never change. But life is way too short to live like this, I am going to kick myself so much later in life for all the lost years and all the missed opportunities.
I am just frustrated. I know what I want in life - i.e. social life, someone nice, happiest times doing the coolest and nicest things. I mean I cannot remember the last time I woke up on a morning feeling excited about the day ahead. I cannot remember the last time I had something exciting on the horizon to look forward to.
Does anyone share this frustration in their life? If so please reply, maybe we can encourage one another to do new things and make things happen. I mean don't you ever think that if only we had someone to push us and make us do the things we should be doing in order to progress in life, that things would be so much easier. Well I would be willing to help those who are willing to help me too.
Sorry for the rant.
