Obstacle 1
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Ok so I had a thread a few weeks back where I was going to go on a coffee date with a girl but ended up cancelling the night before as my anxiety was getting unbearable.. I felt really bad after that because surprise surprise I almost instantly felt better. I did contact her again later but didn't meet up as she was only staying in my city a short time.
So anyway I go a few weeks without doing much but just hammering my daily routine after which I feel a lot better and I get that craving again... The one where you want someone in your life and you start to seek it out.
So long story short I met a girl from online dating last week for coffee and it went pretty well, I mean for a first ever meeting. But of course it has meant the same ugly anxiety has reared its head.. I am starting to lose sleep, I am over thinking everything, I am making irrational decisions and getting tense.. And this is only with one catchup down and another planned for tomorrow. I am actually getting sick from anxiety, not nausea but proper cold/sore throat type. As you can imagine this has kind of killed my earlier enthusiasm. I don't get it, why am I reacting so strongly? My mind is trying to get me to cave that is for sure, I have heard how people have tried to kick addictions and have had similar reactions.. Except I am the inverse, I want to get hooked!
So anyway I go a few weeks without doing much but just hammering my daily routine after which I feel a lot better and I get that craving again... The one where you want someone in your life and you start to seek it out.
So long story short I met a girl from online dating last week for coffee and it went pretty well, I mean for a first ever meeting. But of course it has meant the same ugly anxiety has reared its head.. I am starting to lose sleep, I am over thinking everything, I am making irrational decisions and getting tense.. And this is only with one catchup down and another planned for tomorrow. I am actually getting sick from anxiety, not nausea but proper cold/sore throat type. As you can imagine this has kind of killed my earlier enthusiasm. I don't get it, why am I reacting so strongly? My mind is trying to get me to cave that is for sure, I have heard how people have tried to kick addictions and have had similar reactions.. Except I am the inverse, I want to get hooked!
, I pushed through days of stress and tension and so many different symptoms and I went on this date in spite of my mind/body screaming "nooooooo!!!".. But it was well worth it, I had a good time and I think we got a little closer, it was only catchup no.2. Thankfully she seems like she wants to move things along at a slower pace, and for me that is awesome because that is the only way I can function... Hopefully over time I can release the strangle hold of tension.. Familiarity is the safe zone haha.