I realized that, I can't function in this world.

Depressed4life

Depressed4life

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I know that some people say that you have to try hard and to fight SOCIAL PHOBIA. However, i seriously don't think my SAD will go away or perhasp decrease. Of course, SAD can't go away because is like cancer Cuz "ONCE YOU GET IT, YOU HAVE IT FOR LIFE". A cancer patient gets chemotherapy to make his living condition better and to stay alive while having cancer. So this is what i realized while walking the streets of Manhattan, New york. I realized that i am a lost case, i was with my mother and well she knows about streets and everything. Perhasp, i am the only one that let say where you live and you can walk just because you memorize how to get to certain places and thats it. If a person was to tell me go to this street, I wouldn't know how to get there and perhasp i have passed through the place but i just walk without knowing WHERE i am walking to. I just walk all confuse and just thinking of getting to that certain place and thats it because i tend to memorize it and i just can't process all this streets and number and uptown and downtown. Heck, I don't even know what street is around my own damn house and the only reason why i know the street's name and number of my house is because i was told.
So i wonder and accept the fact that i will never be able to drive because i just can't learn all this streets stuff and mother this and mother that. I just wonder around with my dumb self, all confuse and nervous and depressed and so on and so on. So yeah thats what i realized i mean i knew this but i just wanted to let this out. So if anyone is the same way please tell me your experience. PEACE.
 
x000x

x000x

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Depressed4life said:
I know that some people say that you have to try hard and to fight SOCIAL PHOBIA. However, i seriously don't think my SAD will go away or perhasp decrease. Of course, SAD can't go away because is like cancer Cuz "ONCE YOU GET IT, YOU HAVE IT FOR LIFE". A cancer patient gets chemotherapy to make his living condition better and to stay alive while having cancer. So this is what i realized while walking the streets of Manhattan, New york. I realized that i am a lost case, i was with my mother and well she knows about streets and everything. Perhasp, i am the only one that let say where you live and you can walk just because you memorize how to get to certain places and thats it. If a person was to tell me go to this street, I wouldn't know how to get there and perhasp i have passed through the place but i just walk without knowing WHERE i am walking to. i just walk all confuse and just thinking of getting to that certain place and thats it because i tend to memorize and i just can't process all this streets and number and uptown and downtown. Heck, I don't even know what street is around my own damn house and the only reason why i know the street's name and number of my house is because i was told.
So i wonder and accept that i will never be able to drive because i just can't learn all this streets stuff and mother and mother that. I just wonder around with my dumb self, all confuse and nervous and depressed and so on and so on. So yeah thats what i realized i mean i knew this but i just wanted to let this out. So if anyone is the same way please tell me your experience. PEACE.
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I Feel like this everyday. I'm so scared of doing all these things by myself so I'm not able to do them. When I get out of high school and college I don't know how i'm going to live on my own. I would really like it if I could get a girlfriend (my number one goal right now), but I'm just so terrified to ask a girl to hang out with me and I can never initiate a conversation with one, they have to start talking first. I don't think i'll be able to get an apartment, pay bills, buy a car, get a job, and other basic things on my own. I'm just don't think I can do it, but I would really like it if I could because I want to be on my own, far away, when I finally go to college. So you are not the only one who feels like this.

btw: I'm terrible with directions and streets names also :)
 
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zootdroop

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x000x said:
Depressed4life said:
I know that some people say that you have to try hard and to fight SOCIAL PHOBIA. However, i seriously don't think my SAD will go away or perhasp decrease. Of course, SAD can't go away because is like cancer Cuz "ONCE YOU GET IT, YOU HAVE IT FOR LIFE". A cancer patient gets chemotherapy to make his living condition better and to stay alive while having cancer. So this is what i realized while walking the streets of Manhattan, New york. I realized that i am a lost case, i was with my mother and well she knows about streets and everything. Perhasp, i am the only one that let say where you live and you can walk just because you memorize how to get to certain places and thats it. If a person was to tell me go to this street, I wouldn't know how to get there and perhasp i have passed through the place but i just walk without knowing WHERE i am walking to. i just walk all confuse and just thinking of getting to that certain place and thats it because i tend to memorize and i just can't process all this streets and number and uptown and downtown. Heck, I don't even know what street is around my own damn house and the only reason why i know the street's name and number of my house is because i was told.
So i wonder and accept that i will never be able to drive because i just can't learn all this streets stuff and mother and mother that. I just wonder around with my dumb self, all confuse and nervous and depressed and so on and so on. So yeah thats what i realized i mean i knew this but i just wanted to let this out. So if anyone is the same way please tell me your experience. PEACE.
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I Feel like this everyday. I'm so scared of doing all these things by myself so I'm not able to do them. When I get out of high school and college I don't know how i'm going to live on my own. I would really like it if I could get a girlfriend (my number one goal right now), but I'm just so terrified to ask a girl to hang out with me and I can never initiate a conversation with one, they have to start talking first. I don't think i'll be able to get an apartment, pay bills, buy a car, get a job, and other basic things on my own. I'm just don't think I can do it, but I would really like it if I could because I want to be on my own, far away, when I finally go to college. So you are not the only one who feels like this.

btw: I'm terrible with directions and streets names also :)
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You are not the only one. I can't do anything by myself. If I don't have someone with me when I do things, even the most stupid, simple, normal things, I'm pretty much useless. I just can't handle it for some reason. Part of me doesn't care cause I don't really want to deal with all that stuff anyway, I see it as a waste of my time. I accepted (sort of) a long time ago I'll never change, so I don't let it worry me much anymore. Plus I'm really lucky, I don't have to live 100% on my own, I wouldn't survive long if I did, I'd be in a constant state of stress and anxiety. But when I do want to do something or go somewhere, it's really frustrating, cause I can't bring myself to do it. When I was like 15 I thought when I got older all this crap would go away, but it hasn't.
I'm horrible with streets and directions too. Whenever people talk to me about street names and such and such a place on route 22 or whatever, I just pretend I know what they are talking about, cause I don't want to sound stupid cause I really have no clue. I'm the same with streets around my house. I've lived in the same house for 12 years, but I couldn't tell you the name of any street around it, except the one it's on.
 
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