PunkyMonkey
Well-known member
Hi guys...I'm not as new here as I seem, I used to have another account but I really disappeared when school started and I had no time to go online. I always read a lot that is said here.
Anyway-mostly, I haven't really been much better. My social anxiety still gets in the way of everything. How anxious I am, and act, determines how every day goes for me. It also makes me very depressed, and there is really no one I can tell about it. Sometimes, I can hardly go on and I can't control my crying.
I think I really need help. SA has affected me in school, right now it's affecting me in my summer job, and I am afraid it will ruin my experience in college this fall. I have no idea what to do though. I have tried talking to my parents about it, telling them how miserable I sometimes am, but they tell me I am just shy and that I need to learn to live with it. I was too afraid to ask my mom to help me get therapy or something. For a while last year, I was completely broken down and I did some things that made my parents realize there was something wrong. My mom told me that getting any drugs would ruin my life, but that was what I had chosen, and she said she would take me to a doctor. It was a big relief to hear that, actuall, but she seeed to forget about it, and now my parents still think I am entirely alright. So my relief was gone. I went on, and still am going on, just trying my best.
I guess what I'm asking is, is it worth it to try to get help, even if my parents think that it will destroy who I am and make me less of a person? Is it worth bringing it up, or should I just go on trying to act like I'm perfectly OK? Well, I know I should, because sometimes I know...I need to. I know I can't go on this way forever, it's affecting my quality of life. Is it as bad as my parents think though? Will getting me help be a huge fortune that they couldn't afford? Ha, that's a dumb thing to ask, but is it out of the question for people? Is it something huge that will really make my parents angry? If anyone has any suggestions, I would really appreciate them.
The reason that I am really asking this right now is that if I want to do something, this week I have a chance to do it. On Thursday I have a doctors appointment so I can get shots I need for college. Since it's a new doctor, I need to have a physical before I can get the shots. So, should I say something?? And if I should, then how? How do I bring something like this up, and will my doctor know how to answer me?
I feel really awkward asking all of this but I need to ask somewhere, becase I have no idea how to go about this. I would be grateful for any help....
Anyway-mostly, I haven't really been much better. My social anxiety still gets in the way of everything. How anxious I am, and act, determines how every day goes for me. It also makes me very depressed, and there is really no one I can tell about it. Sometimes, I can hardly go on and I can't control my crying.
I think I really need help. SA has affected me in school, right now it's affecting me in my summer job, and I am afraid it will ruin my experience in college this fall. I have no idea what to do though. I have tried talking to my parents about it, telling them how miserable I sometimes am, but they tell me I am just shy and that I need to learn to live with it. I was too afraid to ask my mom to help me get therapy or something. For a while last year, I was completely broken down and I did some things that made my parents realize there was something wrong. My mom told me that getting any drugs would ruin my life, but that was what I had chosen, and she said she would take me to a doctor. It was a big relief to hear that, actuall, but she seeed to forget about it, and now my parents still think I am entirely alright. So my relief was gone. I went on, and still am going on, just trying my best.
I guess what I'm asking is, is it worth it to try to get help, even if my parents think that it will destroy who I am and make me less of a person? Is it worth bringing it up, or should I just go on trying to act like I'm perfectly OK? Well, I know I should, because sometimes I know...I need to. I know I can't go on this way forever, it's affecting my quality of life. Is it as bad as my parents think though? Will getting me help be a huge fortune that they couldn't afford? Ha, that's a dumb thing to ask, but is it out of the question for people? Is it something huge that will really make my parents angry? If anyone has any suggestions, I would really appreciate them.
The reason that I am really asking this right now is that if I want to do something, this week I have a chance to do it. On Thursday I have a doctors appointment so I can get shots I need for college. Since it's a new doctor, I need to have a physical before I can get the shots. So, should I say something?? And if I should, then how? How do I bring something like this up, and will my doctor know how to answer me?
I feel really awkward asking all of this but I need to ask somewhere, becase I have no idea how to go about this. I would be grateful for any help....