Novicane
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Well, it's very hard for me to talk about this even though people might have heard of this, or dealing with it right now. I have thoughts of hurting people. I would never act on my thoughts, but sometimes I feel like I have no control over my actions during the thought process.
I use to see a counselor, but I had to stop seeing her. I use to tell her about my OCD and she said that I would just get over it. She got me tested for it and I have it. They started go away, but I have been under a lot of stress and now they seem to come back daily again. It's starting to make me feel as if it's normal and I'm suppose to have these thoughts because I'm some kind of serial killer.
I really want these thoughts to just be gone they are causing me to much anxiety and guilt. They leaving me feeling as if I'm some kind of bad person, or murder. It has even stopped me from going places because I'm scared I might have a thought.
I can't even hold a knife, or watch a scary movie anymore without worrying about having a thought. I just started having these thoughts when I was 17 years old. I'm 19 now. I had people boo me in front of 900 people and a lot of kids back in high school caused me so much hell that I had to drop out. I then fell in to a deep depression and started having a social phobia, anxiety, depression, eating disorder and no self confidence.
I just hope that I can find someone to talk to and help me threw this before I lose my mind.
Thank you so much for taking time to read this and reply. I know I did a poor job of writing this, but I havn't went to bed yet and it's 3: 48 A.M. I can't sleep anymore I swear.
I use to see a counselor, but I had to stop seeing her. I use to tell her about my OCD and she said that I would just get over it. She got me tested for it and I have it. They started go away, but I have been under a lot of stress and now they seem to come back daily again. It's starting to make me feel as if it's normal and I'm suppose to have these thoughts because I'm some kind of serial killer.
I really want these thoughts to just be gone they are causing me to much anxiety and guilt. They leaving me feeling as if I'm some kind of bad person, or murder. It has even stopped me from going places because I'm scared I might have a thought.
I can't even hold a knife, or watch a scary movie anymore without worrying about having a thought. I just started having these thoughts when I was 17 years old. I'm 19 now. I had people boo me in front of 900 people and a lot of kids back in high school caused me so much hell that I had to drop out. I then fell in to a deep depression and started having a social phobia, anxiety, depression, eating disorder and no self confidence.
I just hope that I can find someone to talk to and help me threw this before I lose my mind.
Thank you so much for taking time to read this and reply. I know I did a poor job of writing this, but I havn't went to bed yet and it's 3: 48 A.M. I can't sleep anymore I swear.
make a cake for ur nan or when these foughts come into ur head do this count 1 to 5 and then back to one trust me it works for me whe ni feel i turn into someone or i have werid feelings i personally have to count 1 to 5 x4 the 5 makes me feel safe i hope this kindda helped ye so just try think of good foughts or try the number thing or get a hobbie if u dont have one to take ur mind of things