sadmom
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Ok. I am a mother who fear eye contact w/ people. it doesn't who. I mean I can look at my son and husband. but that is as far as it gets. and because I fear of looking at people I get the "look" I cry all the time about it because I am even scary of children. I hate to look at them my heart beat fast and sweat. Can you imaige what a parent thinks. I myself would be wary of the people around my son.I can not control my scares and I make people uncomfortable. I don't want my son to live in shame of his mother, because i know how that feels. My dad talks to himself and is a heavy drinker.I think parents think I am a molester or something wrong (AND I LOVE KIDS NEVER WOULD HURT THEM OR TOUCH THEM IN ANYWAY)What Can I do??? I have thoughts of killing myself because of this. I have to remind myself "You are NoT what people think of you"No one has said anything but I know the looks and they don't trust me around their kids.I fear my son will soon notices this and...I just want to be Nomal again.I wasn't always like this.
Please help
Please help