And it's only now that I've realized this! How could I not have noticed it? Christ, you think you know yourself...
I just realized all these nervous feelings I've had in the past was all due to fear of commitment and pushing attraction away. Once there was this fairly-attractive girl who felt I was alone and down on the mood but really I was anti-social at the time and she decided to befriend me (and told me why after awhile). So she became my friend and we would talk and whatnot. And what I regret, was that sometimes I would push her away (some of the times I was angry and didn't feel like talking to anyone but I still regret it!) and even ignore her for a little bit. She would always greet me whenever she could. This year in HS (freshmen) I've completely noticed that I lost a good opportunity to get much closer to her and then some...
We're still friends/ great acquaintances and we still greet each other from time to time.
Even worse, currently I have this friend who's a girl. We kid around that we're bf/gf an all that jazz and lately she's been asking me if I really like her or not or if I want to go out of her. I told her I didn't want to be in a relationship and that I was a little afraid. That's true. But I'm also not as attracted to her as she is to me. But I don't wanna put her down so we still kid around.
And there's a couple more girls, or this other girl, where I feel nervous or fearful whenever they say hi or come to talk to me with big smiles. It might also be because I feel submissive when they come to me this way.
Has this ever happened to any of you? How can I help fight this feeling? This is probably the reason I'm afraid to approach some girls.
I just realized all these nervous feelings I've had in the past was all due to fear of commitment and pushing attraction away. Once there was this fairly-attractive girl who felt I was alone and down on the mood but really I was anti-social at the time and she decided to befriend me (and told me why after awhile). So she became my friend and we would talk and whatnot. And what I regret, was that sometimes I would push her away (some of the times I was angry and didn't feel like talking to anyone but I still regret it!) and even ignore her for a little bit. She would always greet me whenever she could. This year in HS (freshmen) I've completely noticed that I lost a good opportunity to get much closer to her and then some...
We're still friends/ great acquaintances and we still greet each other from time to time.
Even worse, currently I have this friend who's a girl. We kid around that we're bf/gf an all that jazz and lately she's been asking me if I really like her or not or if I want to go out of her. I told her I didn't want to be in a relationship and that I was a little afraid. That's true. But I'm also not as attracted to her as she is to me. But I don't wanna put her down so we still kid around.
And there's a couple more girls, or this other girl, where I feel nervous or fearful whenever they say hi or come to talk to me with big smiles. It might also be because I feel submissive when they come to me this way.
Has this ever happened to any of you? How can I help fight this feeling? This is probably the reason I'm afraid to approach some girls.