Weakminded
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I feel like I post about my stupid situations wAay too much but this is just how I feel and I have no one to tell.. I have two close freinds who are brothers and I've known them for years. Now I know they obviously like me because they are the ones who always call me too hang out. But when I'm hanging out with them I feel like there's all these really awkward silences that go on for wAay too long and in my head I'm thinking ok I'm their guest I should be speaking but I stay quite. * Sometimes they talk and I don't even say a word. *The only time I feel some what comfortable is when I'm drunk and even then I feel like I still think negative. I feel like they see that I'm nervous I know for a fact they have picked up on it especially when they invite other people over. I avoid my best friends during the day because I don't want it to be awkward and I know at night we might possible drink so I know I will feel more comfortable. To tell you the truth I get awkward around my own brother mom and dad. I hate who I am and envy people that can manage these situations better than me... *I just don't know how to talk to people and when I do talk I sound weird. *I just don't understand why I' have to be this way and I just feel like a weak person.*