i had no idea this is what is wrong with me!

[cainke]

I've always just thought i was really shy...and really self conscious...
I think I have more selective social phobias though....
Like avoiding talking to certain people, I won't eat in my car if I'm alone because I'm afraid someone will notice, pretending to be on my phone to avoid
talking to people/people approaching me, i dont know..stupid random
things like that. ****...I haven't even gone to visit my relatives in almost
a year and they live 45 minutes away from me because I'm avoiding
it.

I don't know if I get anxiety as bad as everyone else though..,
I hate living like this. I just want to be "free."
I feel like I'm never going to make it when I'm through with college
because of I'm not outspoken enough, or jump at opportunities, or just
all of these stupid phobias.

I'm really glad I found this forum..I finally have a place to vent, and not
feel dumb.
And people will understand.

 

[Almost]

Hey, welcome to SPW.

I felt the same way, then I found out about Social Anxiety Disorder just last month.

I thought I was just really weird or something and nothing made since about how I was acting, I was so confused. But it really is nice to find other people who feel the same way, I've never met anyone else with SA in real life, so it's great to hear what other people who have it are thinking too.

 

[cainke]

Thanks
I know what you mean, everyone just thinks I'm really awkward and shy..and I know everything I do shouldn't be as hard as it is for me. I have no idea where it comes from either..all of my family members are outgoing...I guess excluding my dad.
I feel so trapped.., I think it's getting worse as I get older..I think about things more than I should.

 

[Almost]

Yeah, mine is getting worse too and I need to do something about it.

My dad is very outgoing, my mom is outgoing but very sensitive to any criticism, and both of my sisters are pretty shy but not SA.

 

[FOR REAL]

"I think it's getting worse as I get older"

thats how i feel too, i always thought things would get easier as i got older.

i hope things turn out good for you.

 

[dooby-duck]

My anxiety has definitely got worse since leaving University.

 

[mikestar]

I thought leaving my teen years behind would make things better....it hasnt

You just gotta keep going and enjoy the stuff u like doing,probably not much but there must be something you have a passion for.

Ive given up trying to think where all my problems came from,I do remember that knock on the head tho when I was a kid...