I gotta make this year better than the last

[thequietone]

It's back to school tomorrow and starting my second year of college. :x I made a pledge to myself that I'm going to try and be more positive, going to talk to people, maybe even make a friend or to without rejecting them when they get too close to me. But God, I'm nervous!

Last year was probably the worst in my life so far, I'm not trying to moan about it, I'm just stating fact. I have a terrible fear that the past is going to repeat itself. I also fear that I will make a friend and have this huge obligation to them and be stressed out 24/7.
So I'm kind of stuck. I wonder if this is a problem other SA sufferers have...I want friends but I don't. I want to be healthy but I fear change. I want to be positive but I'm afraid of the attention I will get. I want attention but it makes me too nervous. Ugh! :evil: can't win!

 

[dzerklis]

you show sp whos got the power :x 8)

 

[jayo]

Yeah - know exactly what you mean!

A friend like this will mean a commitment and sometimes you just want to be alone!

But I think you've got the right idea - perhaps you could enrol into a club and go from there.

J