karen1970
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Hi
I'm new to this site, and wondered wether someone could help me I'm in a huge dilemma
About 5 years ago, I was feeling the lowest I've ever felt. I was bullied all through school and had an awful life with everyone treated me like crap, excpet my parents they've bin wonderful and have brought me up very well.
Then I hit the lowest point and instead of drinking or other addictions, I felt suicidal and even started stealing. Not from shops, from people I knew who had treated me nasty in the past. It wasn't much at times, and I didn't do it very often. I also cheated on my loving boyfriend one night back then too. This was in a bad time of our relatinship when we were constanlty arguing and thinking of splitting up and I coldn't take it anymore, he told me if I ever did this he would split up and he proposed to me last month so surely I can just take this to the grave with me ?
My parents did query me on some of them and I told them lies that I hadn't done it and they believed me but I couldn't care less about anything back then. I had social phobia and lots of anxiety and didn't give a toss about life anymroe. it was my revenge for a world that treat me so bad.
Now 2 months ago, I told my parents about my social phobia as they knew it might be something like that and I've been getting some CBT therapy for it.
But now I feel very guilty and wondered if I shoudl tell my parents of the bad crimes I've committed even though I wsn't ecacly 100% in the head then and felt so low, I'm now feeling better but can't shake off these guilt feelings.
Should I tel my parents and perhaps be abandoned by them forever as they don't tolerate stealing and other crimes, and also they would feel ashamed if they ever met those people again as they live quite near them
Or keep it to myself, take it to the grave with me, accept it was mistakes int he past at my lowest points, never to be repeated, now I'm getting better I no longer need to hang on to this, perhaps write it down and burn it. I think this will work.
Please help me
Havr you done things you are npt proud off when feeling at your lowest?
I'm new to this site, and wondered wether someone could help me I'm in a huge dilemma
About 5 years ago, I was feeling the lowest I've ever felt. I was bullied all through school and had an awful life with everyone treated me like crap, excpet my parents they've bin wonderful and have brought me up very well.
Then I hit the lowest point and instead of drinking or other addictions, I felt suicidal and even started stealing. Not from shops, from people I knew who had treated me nasty in the past. It wasn't much at times, and I didn't do it very often. I also cheated on my loving boyfriend one night back then too. This was in a bad time of our relatinship when we were constanlty arguing and thinking of splitting up and I coldn't take it anymore, he told me if I ever did this he would split up and he proposed to me last month so surely I can just take this to the grave with me ?
My parents did query me on some of them and I told them lies that I hadn't done it and they believed me but I couldn't care less about anything back then. I had social phobia and lots of anxiety and didn't give a toss about life anymroe. it was my revenge for a world that treat me so bad.
Now 2 months ago, I told my parents about my social phobia as they knew it might be something like that and I've been getting some CBT therapy for it.
But now I feel very guilty and wondered if I shoudl tell my parents of the bad crimes I've committed even though I wsn't ecacly 100% in the head then and felt so low, I'm now feeling better but can't shake off these guilt feelings.
Should I tel my parents and perhaps be abandoned by them forever as they don't tolerate stealing and other crimes, and also they would feel ashamed if they ever met those people again as they live quite near them
Or keep it to myself, take it to the grave with me, accept it was mistakes int he past at my lowest points, never to be repeated, now I'm getting better I no longer need to hang on to this, perhaps write it down and burn it. I think this will work.
Please help me
Havr you done things you are npt proud off when feeling at your lowest?