Tell me why every time i try to do something i chicken out....its like i make plans and then the time comes and its like nope, not doing it!
Im tired, I have a headache, i have to clean, i have to do this i have to do that, i dont feel good, i have to work in the morning...i swear i could never run out of excuses...but thats getting so old! I act like im so busy all the time when im really home in my room with the door locked on this damn computer, watching TV or letting all my thoughts take over about how i cant do anything even tho i want to soo soo sooo bad! SA is evil! its breaking me down! everytime im w/anyone, all i wanna do is run in a dark corner and hide, and what really bothers me is that im 20 im supposed to be having fun, i should be in school, i should be in a relationship, i should have all these friends, my cell phone should be ringing off the hook, but it barley rings at all, because im being forgotten, all my friends know i wont go out so they dont bother to call me, not even to ask how im doing...i dont wanna think anymore...i want a switch that can turn it all off...is anyone else affraid of change...any change at all...no matter how small it is? because it may bring attention to you? people will point it out and put you on the spot...like a hair cut...i mean small things?
Im tired, I have a headache, i have to clean, i have to do this i have to do that, i dont feel good, i have to work in the morning...i swear i could never run out of excuses...but thats getting so old! I act like im so busy all the time when im really home in my room with the door locked on this damn computer, watching TV or letting all my thoughts take over about how i cant do anything even tho i want to soo soo sooo bad! SA is evil! its breaking me down! everytime im w/anyone, all i wanna do is run in a dark corner and hide, and what really bothers me is that im 20 im supposed to be having fun, i should be in school, i should be in a relationship, i should have all these friends, my cell phone should be ringing off the hook, but it barley rings at all, because im being forgotten, all my friends know i wont go out so they dont bother to call me, not even to ask how im doing...i dont wanna think anymore...i want a switch that can turn it all off...is anyone else affraid of change...any change at all...no matter how small it is? because it may bring attention to you? people will point it out and put you on the spot...like a hair cut...i mean small things?