I blew it!

[thor01]

Today, on the last day of college for this course, in the last exam, I tried really hard to finnish the paper in time to get out at around the same time as the only girl on the course I like being around and feel some kind of connection with as a person as she is quiet like me (but not as much as me) and I like her soft voice. I did manage to finnish and get out around the same time. Afterwards she was stood by two other girls she knows, talking to them, after a few minutes I went and stood in that area after the other two had dispersed, and thought about trying to say something when it felt right, however to my surprise she started speaking to me, asking how I found the exam, and then moved onto things like the coming holiday, and she asked if I was coming back next year to which I replied yes, and I asked if she was, to which she replied yes aswell and to that I said good, as I was very glad about that. We walked down the stairs on the way to the outside of the college, with me shaking and speaking quietly the whole time, I couldn't think very straight, but i was planning on somehow getting her number or something, just with the intention of remaining friends, as I thought she would be walking all the way out of the college and to the bus station at the same time as me, so I thought I'll ask her on the way to there, however it turned out she was going back into the college, so my train of thought was just cut off by that and I just said bye, still very exited and shaky about the fact I was actually talking to a girl, and the fact she didn't seem bothered about my nervousness and strangeness. As she went back in and I walked across the road I just thought "Oh shit". Because I realised I just had the perfect chance to get her number and I didn't. I considered going back in, but thought it would it would seem to awkward, as she knows I've just gone, and she would probably be around other people. So I carried on, feeling really annoyed and sad. I was happy that I actually got to speak to her again after hoping I would get the chance again for months, and the fact she will be back next year, but Just the fact my main mission to be able to contact her thought the holiday is failed, and now I'll have to wait about 12 weeks or however long it is to speak again, which is distressing, because of the fact I had a chance and blew it. Now I have 12 weeks with no contact.

 

[thor01]

I tried looking and cant find anything.

 

[Kinetik]

Don't worry about it, I don't think you blew it at all, and actually, the way it worked out was probably for the best. Short, sweet meetings are often the happiest. I wouldn't go looking for her online. She's going back to uni after the summer, as are you, so be happy in that knowledge and use this time off to rehearse a few things you might say to her once you see her again. In that sense, this break might make you better prepared. She'll remember who you are come the autumn, so there's no need to be in her face unnecessarily in the meantime.

 

[thor01]

Don't worry about it, I don't think you blew it at all, and actually, the way it worked out was probably for the best. Short, sweet meetings are often the happiest. I wouldn't go looking for her online. She's going back to uni after the summer, as are you, so be happy in that knowledge and use this time off to rehearse a few things you might say to her once you see her again. In that sense, this break might make you better prepared. She'll remember who you are come the autumn, so there's no need to be in her face unnecessarily in the meantime.

Good point. Thanks for trying to make me feel better about it. Its just the feeling that anything could happen in that 12 weeks that worries me, even though it shouldn't worry me, as I'd be happy just having her as a friend anyway, as I mainly like her personality more than anything. She's not ugly at all, but somehow I wouldn't be as attracted if I just saw her without knowing her as a person, whereas with other random ones I see about that I don't know, and never will, I sometimes find instantly attractive visually. Although I have gradually found her a lot more attractive in that way, maybe partly because of the fact I feel like I don't have a chance of talking to, finding, or anything with any others.

 

[Sacrament]

Is it me or are a few posts missing in this thread? I'm pretty sure your second post was in response to someone asking you to look for her on social networking websites.