recluse
Well-known member
I'm lonely yet when people text me on my mobile phone i read them but very often i will not reply, and sometimes my phone will ring and i'll switch the phone off to avoid talking to them. People are making an effort to be friends with me yet i push them away, because i don't feel worthy of friendship and i feel so fake as if i have to force myself to be friendly and happy. My self esteem at the moment is rock bottom. I just want to hide myself in my room and never come out again but i have to work so that's out of the question. God! I hate having this disorder.