I am like a child in a man's body

[no1]

I had like, hardly any childhood. Now I'm an "adult" and I'm not living as an adult should. Nor as a man should, or even a human being "should".

How can I ever get through this? How is it possible for someone to accept me like this? How is it even possible to grow up? Will I always be immature until the day I die? I don't even think I can have a relationship or even much of a friendship. I am alone and too different, and unlikeable. Who can teach me to "grow up" or "mature" or become proficient in those areas that are learned through experience? Who will not judge me for being this way? Who will have the time for me?

Will my only friend be the therapist? or my father? when he or they die or get too old who's going to be my friend? Am I incurable?

Who will put up with me?

 

[Sad-Kitten]

Those are tough questions and there really isn't an easy answer. I too feel immature sometimes. Its hard seeing all these people my age doing things and going places and i feel like i'm stuck at home practically wholly reliant on my mom. But you gotta keep moving on. I think as long as you keep pushing your self then even if you fail you can't say you didn't give it one hell of a try.

 

[no1]

yea one hell of a try but I care a lot about others. Though sometimes I couldn't give a Sh*t (sorry), but most of the time I feel like I should just for the sake of others avoid them. Or.. I just avoid being too friendly with them. Like I don't tryto make friends I guess.. or socialize at all because I think my aura, my character, my life, is poison.

everyone I feel like I am a burden to so I avoid them for the better. I am a martyr, feeling like a martyr and leading myself to a trap right?

 

[TooShyShy]

What makes you child like?

What are you doing or not doing that makes you feel this way? Do you feel by your age you should have done something..or have achieved certain things?


I know in some areas of life many people feel this way.

 

[bulent]

I feel like i havent lived for the last 15 years,so i'm stuck at my 15 although i am 30.