Weakminded
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I'm trying to get a job there's a few places I've been to but I noticed I'm only relying on those few and I tell myself that it's enough but I honestly don't think it is. I won't go apply for a job unless I know I can get a ride. I won't take the bus unless I know Forsure I have the job but just to apply I cant do it because I know I can get a ride even if it's a week from now I'd rather wait. which is crazy. And when it comes to education I just don't have the drive to make it happen.. I never study for my GED and untill I pass then I can't go to college but the thing is I don't even know what I want to do in college.
I look around me and see all these people moving on with their lives whether it be through getting jobs or going to school they just make it happen and take time to study and they are growing through these situations I'm sure.. The fact that I can't tell myself to suck it up and force myself in some of these situations scares me and makes me feel like a truly weak person. Basically a scared little wuss. I can't even jokingly make fun of someone because I don't want to hurt their feelings and I don't like bring made fun of either so I just don't do it. I feel like if I were on my own the world would eat me up and that makes me feel weak. I don't know how to make myself say screw it and stop caring about how the world views me.
If you were like this what was the turning point for you that made you stop caring and stop being so sensitive and passive? I have it permenantly ingrained in my head that I know Im a pussy and that most likely everyone around me is tougher than me mentally and I'm convinced people who know me view me this way even though they don't say it to my face. I'm 23 years old and when you mom tells you that she doesn't see you as an aggressive guy she's basically calling you a bitch and she knows how passive I am.
Every wussy character I see on tv I automatically think I am that person. I know I put myself down way too much but it's hard not too. I just don't see why I haven't grown out of this and haven't tried to man up. I mean I'm already 23 years old.
I look around me and see all these people moving on with their lives whether it be through getting jobs or going to school they just make it happen and take time to study and they are growing through these situations I'm sure.. The fact that I can't tell myself to suck it up and force myself in some of these situations scares me and makes me feel like a truly weak person. Basically a scared little wuss. I can't even jokingly make fun of someone because I don't want to hurt their feelings and I don't like bring made fun of either so I just don't do it. I feel like if I were on my own the world would eat me up and that makes me feel weak. I don't know how to make myself say screw it and stop caring about how the world views me.
If you were like this what was the turning point for you that made you stop caring and stop being so sensitive and passive? I have it permenantly ingrained in my head that I know Im a pussy and that most likely everyone around me is tougher than me mentally and I'm convinced people who know me view me this way even though they don't say it to my face. I'm 23 years old and when you mom tells you that she doesn't see you as an aggressive guy she's basically calling you a bitch and she knows how passive I am.
Every wussy character I see on tv I automatically think I am that person. I know I put myself down way too much but it's hard not too. I just don't see why I haven't grown out of this and haven't tried to man up. I mean I'm already 23 years old.
