Hey guys,
I'm almost positive I have OCD and I need your help to determine what is it:
I have all these "ticks" like - When I was younger (about 7-8 years old) I used to blink a lot all the time (like every 3-4 seconds), especially when I was really stressed out. Today (25 years old) I don't blink any more but I still have lots of other stuff I "have to do", like touching the wall at a certain spot, click on certain button on the keyboard before I type anything else, if I got hurt in one hand - I have to cause the same exact amount of pain in the other hand at the same exact spot, and so on with these rituals.
The only difference is - I don't do these things because I'm afraid of anything or feeling anxious about something. I'm actually quite a happy person. I just do these things because it "tingles" my fingers tips to do so. It's like an urge that tells me I have to do it, but I don't think about "Well, if I don't do it - something bad might happen". no. It's just the urge without feeling anxious about anything.
What do they call my condition and how do I treat it? It's pretty annoying being led by these urges that, and it's got to a point where it's controlling my whole life.
Thanks a lot!
Yotam
P.S.
Reading it again I see what OCD sufferers were all talking about when they said that words that try to describe how they feel and suffer because of this disorder - really trivialize everything. I assure you that I'm really suffering from this. It's really hard to express how much pain I've had throughout my lifespan so far. Then again - it IS a forum for OCD sufferers so I'm guessing you'd understand what I'm trying to convey here.
I'm almost positive I have OCD and I need your help to determine what is it:
I have all these "ticks" like - When I was younger (about 7-8 years old) I used to blink a lot all the time (like every 3-4 seconds), especially when I was really stressed out. Today (25 years old) I don't blink any more but I still have lots of other stuff I "have to do", like touching the wall at a certain spot, click on certain button on the keyboard before I type anything else, if I got hurt in one hand - I have to cause the same exact amount of pain in the other hand at the same exact spot, and so on with these rituals.
The only difference is - I don't do these things because I'm afraid of anything or feeling anxious about something. I'm actually quite a happy person. I just do these things because it "tingles" my fingers tips to do so. It's like an urge that tells me I have to do it, but I don't think about "Well, if I don't do it - something bad might happen". no. It's just the urge without feeling anxious about anything.
What do they call my condition and how do I treat it? It's pretty annoying being led by these urges that, and it's got to a point where it's controlling my whole life.
Thanks a lot!
Yotam
P.S.
Reading it again I see what OCD sufferers were all talking about when they said that words that try to describe how they feel and suffer because of this disorder - really trivialize everything. I assure you that I'm really suffering from this. It's really hard to express how much pain I've had throughout my lifespan so far. Then again - it IS a forum for OCD sufferers so I'm guessing you'd understand what I'm trying to convey here.
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