thequietone
Well-known member
For about 4 years I didn't understand why people felt such profound desperation to form relationships when it was so much easier TO BE ALONE. Only now, do I realize that that whole time, I put all my energy into convincing myself that I didn't need anyone and it DID NOT HELP ME become a happier person. We are created to be social animals. Why then, is it so hard to establish friends? I remember being very young, four or five, and walking up to another kid and asking, you want to be friends? It's nothing like that now, and that's the only thing I have experience with.
There are people who I try to talk to--it still feels forced, but it's getting easier. However, I would never dream of asking any of these people to "hang out". How awkward! I cannot get myself past that step. They are acquaintances, attached only to work, only to a certain class and I can't envision ever having anything more than that.
You see it plastered all over the media, you see it all around you. People hang out in small comfortable groups, they drink and laugh together. People fall in love. I cannot see this happening for me, but I want it, I really do. Am I being unrealistic? Am I going too fast? I've only come to the conclusion that I was going to try and rejoin the world a few months ago. Anyone in the same stage of life? Have any advice or anything to add? I'd appreciate it
There are people who I try to talk to--it still feels forced, but it's getting easier. However, I would never dream of asking any of these people to "hang out". How awkward! I cannot get myself past that step. They are acquaintances, attached only to work, only to a certain class and I can't envision ever having anything more than that.
You see it plastered all over the media, you see it all around you. People hang out in small comfortable groups, they drink and laugh together. People fall in love. I cannot see this happening for me, but I want it, I really do. Am I being unrealistic? Am I going too fast? I've only come to the conclusion that I was going to try and rejoin the world a few months ago. Anyone in the same stage of life? Have any advice or anything to add? I'd appreciate it