LucidPanda
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mandapandahead said:I oftentimes just try to keep myself focused on the present and immediate future, because I don't see myself as having the brightest of futures. I mean I plan on going to grad school and getting a PhD but all the work involved scares the crap out of me and I'm not sure I can handle it. Especially with the dissertation and having to present a defense in front of a committee. I have a bad feeling I'm going to end up being unable to fulfill that. Even though things (school wise) are going pretty well now I have this horrible feeling that it's all just going to blow up in my face.
Interesting. That's completely the opposite in that case. You focus on working hard on the moment? Technically that should all lead to a bright future. But I'd probably say.. let's not jinx it
Also, as far as relationships go I've never had one and I have an extremely hard time believing I ever will have one. I just don't see myself as the type of girl who could be in a relationship. I would really love to, but seeing everyone else in relationships just makes me doubt myself even more. And I know that just about every girl dreams about her wedding and plans all the details but I honestly cannot picture myself getting married. It's unfathomable for me even though I want to get married and have kids more than anything.
I know what you mean. I used to be a believer in the whole everybody finds someone, then I realised I'm actually going to have difficulty getting into a relationship.
But hey... one can always hope that friendships will develop into romantic. That's my best bet.