Spent the last hour making about 7 separate phone calls regarding my health insurance and doctor appointments. Now awaiting a call to see if I can participate in that drexel university SA program. Even though I can grow accustomed to using the phone when I have to, the anxiety persist afterwards and I'm left feeling tense.
Also.. trying to find the right concoction of alcohol that won't make me sleepy. Had two malibu cranberry mixes last night and half a glass of malibu and orange juice.. or flavoring. Though feeling relaxed is nice, I don't want to knock out. Not a big fan of beer. Suggestions? No coke or red bull mixes either. lol
Spent the last hour making about 7 separate phone calls regarding my health insurance and doctor appointments. Now awaiting a call to see if I can participate in that drexel university SA program. Even though I can grow accustomed to using the phone when I have to, the anxiety persist afterwards and I'm left feeling tense.
Also.. trying to find the right concoction of alcohol that won't make me sleepy. Had two malibu cranberry mixes last night and half a glass of malibu and orange juice.. or flavoring. Though feeling relaxed is nice, I don't want to knock out. Not a big fan of beer. Suggestions? No coke or red bull mixes either. lol
Don't use alcohol to sleep. That's a good way to develop an addiction not to mention that alcohol actually disrupts quality sleep.
I had an oral presentation today in front of the whole class and breezed through it with no mistakes and felt absolutely fine. Later that day, I had a very brief conversation with just one person and I felt very awkward and anxious, on the brink of a panic attack.
I had an oral presentation today in front of the whole class and breezed through it with no mistakes and felt absolutely fine. Later that day, I had a very brief conversation with just one person and I felt very awkward and anxious, on the brink of a panic attack.
How the hell does that work?
It happens to me too sometimes. The possible reasons maybe you were highly motivated before the presentation or in a good mood in general and it helped, while talking to the person though maybe it changed for some reason.
I feel absolutely sick and depressed at the thought of having to go to work today. At least it's only three hours. If I thought the other place was bad - and in retrospect, it wasn't - this place is awful. The way they talk to me, you should hear them. I don't know if I can last there. I REALLY don't want to quit another job. It will look bad on my resume and then I will have to search for another one, etc., but I'm finding I dread going back there every day. I feel like a piece of **** when I'm there and feel like there's nothing I can do about it.
I feel better - but I know that there is a lot of people on here who don't like me all that much.
Funny how you tend to focus on them the most. But I appreciate the reassurance from those who responded - you guys aren't all that bad yourself 🙂
I feel absolutely sick and depressed at the thought of having to go to work today. At least it's only three hours. If I thought the other place was bad - and in retrospect, it wasn't - this place is awful. The way they talk to me, you should hear them. I don't know if I can last there. I REALLY don't want to quit another job. It will look bad on my resume and then I will have to search for another one, etc., but I'm finding I dread going back there every day. I feel like a piece of **** when I'm there and feel like there's nothing I can do about it.
I'm sorry you've to deal with all that Opaline. I really hope things get better soon or you find a better job.
Lousy. I have so little experience interacting with people. On the rare occasions someone does express a genuine interest in me, I never know how to respond. I always feel like I say the wrong thing.
Thanks guys. I just got hit with a wave of sadness last night, completely out of the blue. Couldn't sleep, then had the most awful and depressing dream right before I woke up this morning.
I still feel kind of raw, but this day seems to be going better so far.
Very upset. I need someone to talk to on here that is not judgmental and I mean open minded because I don't feel comfortable sharing this with many people because I already know what the reaction is going to be, but I desperately need to discuss it.
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