So tired. It's probably from the food I ate this morning, all processed sugary crap. It tasted amazing, but the blood sugar crash is bleh..... That's why I've been vegging out on my computer all day 😀
Celebration isn't until 7pm tonight, so....... yeah......... might fall asleep before then.................
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On the verge of tears. I can't cry in front of people though, especially my parents. I've only been able to cry in front of one person.
Hey, what's wrong? I hope it's not something that you can't fix. Maybe talking about it with someone will help. Or you can go somewhere in private and cry, just make sure those feelings get an outlet of your choice.
Feeling rather down. For some reason, not only do I feel like I've been used and tossed to the curb, but I also feel like a terrible person. I don't know why I feel so down right now. Well, I kinda do, and that's why I feel like I've been tossed to the curb, but I don't know what prompted me to feel like I'm a horrible person.
I can't fix it.
Nobody understands except for one person, but I can't...talk to him right now.
I feel like such a sap. Crying...god,what a loser.
Goodnight,anyway.
Crying doesn't make you a loser; those tears are a sign of your humanity. I wish I COULD cry, but I've stifled my emotions to the point where I naturally suppress them and now I can't feel anything, not sadness or happiness. Embrace those feelings and I hope tomorrow yields a brighter day for you.
Well I went to my grandmothers house for thanksgiving dinner. I didnt want to go,I mean how sad is it that im shy in front of my own family. My uncle was there with his new girlfriend who ive never met. At the end of the night I was saying bye to everybody and when I got to my uncles girlfriend I completely forgot her name. I was like bye...youuuuuu? and everybody was like 0_0. It was so awkward...
I'm feeling pretty damn good! 🙂 I attended a family get together today, which I try to avoid like the plague, and actually had a good time. Although I did get stuck entertaining half of the little kids while my sister got the other half. And I left before my grandma made a huge production out of a minor thing (which she is always bound to do), so I guess that's two pluses in my score book. Then my sister, one of her friends from college, and I went out to eat. In honor of Beatrice's birthday, I had not one but TWO drinks. And now I'm home and tired and stuffed and kinda sad. But I'm going to try and put that off until tomorrow.
Well I went to my grandmothers house for thanksgiving dinner. I didnt want to go,I mean how sad is it that im shy in front of my own family. My uncle was there with his new girlfriend who ive never met. At the end of the night I was saying bye to everybody and when I got to my uncles girlfriend I completely forgot her name. I was like bye...youuuuuu? and everybody was like 0_0. It was so awkward...
If it was your first time meeting her, I don't think it's all that weird to forget her name. You just met! When leaving the family party today, my aunt (my mother's sister) asked (told?) my sister and I to give our uncle (it was his birthday) a hug. I've never hugged this man in my entire life. Why do I have to hug him now, at the ripe old age of 24? But I did it anyway. I hope she made all of my cousins hug him, too. The whole party was a stupid idea anyway. There is nothing my uncle would love more than to be left alone. Instead, there's a big birthday party with people from his family and people from my aunt's family and none of us know each other and some idiot invited my grandma and....I have a ****ing headache.
I'm feeling damn good right now.... probably mainly because of the rum, but...... that's not making me discount this happy feeling 😀
Don't care about stupid people, love the ones who love me, love the decisions I've made to get me to where I am and am super excited for the future. It looks so bright right now.
An awesome career, making awesome friends, a fantastic college, I'm so happy I could cry. I'm just so grateful, I can't believe these good things are happening to me, I almost can't believe it.......
I'm slow on the uptake. I thought some people were just being friendly but they were making fun of me. A major misunderstanding to negotiate, another minefield I need to answer with silence and avoidance.
Like I really cba with people who don't do what they say they're going to do.
It's all talk and no action.
Maybe they'll notice when they see I've stopped waiting.
