I'm in a bit of a jam right now; I looked at my member page and there's barely anything there, so I wanted to spruce it up a bit, but I can't think of anything. So, people of SPW, I ask you: do you have any ideas on how to "pimp my page"?
Pretty sure I was just called a douche. Pretty sure my roommates think I am a douche. At least can be one.
I know thats not what I am. I don't feel like part of the group,
This is an ongoing problem that needs to be fixed.
My thinking at the moment is that they think I have quiet music to cover up the sounds of my typing.
I'm a mess and complaining about myself too much. This I know. I also know late at night with quiet jazz I tell them a bit about myself without disturbing them. Thats not the main point, but a benefit if you want to call it that.
How am I feeling? How am I feeling... hmm, let's see. There's sadness, shock, disgust, anger, wrath, pure bloodlust, and oh the list just seems to go on for miles. Right now my mind is just reeling with images of me brutally massacring every single person in my family (save my beloved mother and my great aunt's family). People are just... I'm not going to even bother finishing this sentence or else my rant about how much I hate people at the moment will never reach a conclusion.
Like I don't care about anything. Which will soon switch back to caring about everything. Which will switch back again.
This is one of the only places I ramble without thinking about it...except for now...but I guess now...alright fine, I planned the whole thing out in advance...slowly...as I went along.
Annoyed. I feel like I have to justify and explain my behaviour to people all the time, when they do not have the capability of understanding. It takes another phobe to understand a phobe. My parents are natural extroverts and look at me as if I am a freak. They dont understand and it bugs the hell out of me. I just want to be left alone....
I just read an email from the manager at Fresh and Easy saying that the job position I applied for was given to someone else but there's an opening for customer assistant still open that she would be more than happy to give to me. Only problem is that that means I would have a job where I would have to interact directly with hundreds of customers per day. F***, I'm torn. I think I should take the job so I can improve my social skills and get more used to being around people but at the same time I feel like I'm going to put too much stress on myself and end up doing things wrong and get fired. F***.. so frustrating..
Go for it. What do you have to lose? If you find you hate it, and dealing with those people is stressing you out too much, you can always quit and you'll be in no worse a position than you are now. On the other hand, you may well find that you can cope, and the job helps you with your SA.
Annoyed. I feel like I have to justify and explain my behaviour to people all the time, when they do not have the capability of understanding. It takes another phobe to understand a phobe. My parents are natural extroverts and look at me as if I am a freak. They dont understand and it bugs the hell out of me. I just want to be left alone....
Same here. My parents are extrovert too, nearly all of my family is. They view me as wierd too. Annoys the hell out of me. Hope you feel better though 🙂
Spent a nice weekend with two of my friends. Was lovely, but showed me I have a LOT to do in terms of sorting my life out. I need to focus on this rather than my anxiety.
I feel nocturnal. Threw off my sleep yesterday and I slept through the day. Up at night today, will be sleeping through the day tomorrow... Barely seen the light of day!
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