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[Feeble Scream]

Hi!
I'm 18 years old male from Finland. I've had social anxiety for years now but it keeps getting worse. I usually try to hide my phobia (with little success) as I'm afraid that people will brand me as a totally lunatic freak. I would want to be social but I'm just usually too damn afraid to say a single word. When I was younger I tend to escape to video games. Now that doesn't work and only music helps me though even it has started to lose it's effect. ::
Now I'm just trapped in my room, daydreaming about life I don't have.

I'm glad I'm not alone and maybe I can get some friends here.

 

[kihira]

Hi ...............

 

[BlueDays]

Hello Feeble Scream, welcome to the forum

 

[coyote]

Hi, and welcome to the forum.

 

[Toomuchfear]

Hi FS. Welcome to the forum...the moment I found people were having similar difficulties to me, I did not feel so alone!

What goes through your mind when you try and fail to speak? Perhaps try making a video blog to help practice getting the right words out, uploading it completely optional!

 

[Feeble Scream]

What goes through your mind when you try and fail to speak? Perhaps try making a video blog to help practice getting the right words out, uploading it completely optional!

The usual. Did I say something stupid, what do they think of me now. And did I say it too loud or too quietly. What tone of voice did I use etc.
I wouldn't like to vlog because I always get nervous in front of camera, whether it's on or not. And I already talk to myself sometimes.

 

[Toomuchfear]

Sounds like vocal self consciousness. I know exactly what you mean...voice tone, body language, my facial expressions. I scrutinise myself then I think about them scrutinising me!

We have to think of someway of getting you confident talking. I practised speaking with a non-judgemental disabled friend..this really helped. Take tiny steps, and with enough practice, I really hope you can get to where you want to be.

 

[Paahi]

Hi and welcome!