Hi all,
I am from Sweden and I have a high degree of social anxiety. Have been thinking about doing something about it for years, have read more that I can remember about social skills, self help and such. I have been to a KBT therapist, liked everything but kept procrastinating. At times I have tried to take shortcuts into getting better, jumping over steps that I "should" have done and eventually everything came crushing down.
I am currently working with a book on dealing with social phobia (have read most of it but have trouble getting started as usual) with KBT.
I have dealt with my anxieties throughout life by eating alot of junkfood, which has turned into an addiction that I have handled now and then. I have been working out alot, exercising, over the years because of it and one of my goals have been to get a fit body and I actually achieved it, I went from a weight of 110 kg to 79 kg and sure that was great.
But it didn't give me what I thought it would so I fell back into junkfood eating and have been going back and forth a little since then, somewhat uncertain about what I should do.
I still work out but I know that I have to do something about my social problems but I keep postponing it and it scares me. I even have anxiety before a planned session to sit down and WORK with the KBT book! Its like I am scared to delve into my mind to find out what is in there, what kind of crazy beliefs I have created over the years (I will be 30 in two months!!, scary as hell man), it all feels so overwhelming, like an impossible task to accomplish.
I get anxious/negavite/depressed nowadays just to be alone with my own thoughts (after a while), therefore I always watch tv, read or do something to occupy me. I think this is the main reason that I cant get things started because I just cant stand myself anymore. And without the tv or a book there is nothing that protects me from my negative self hating thought patterns.
I am an expert at rambling on about different subjects though, hehe.
But anyway I am glad to be here.
I am from Sweden and I have a high degree of social anxiety. Have been thinking about doing something about it for years, have read more that I can remember about social skills, self help and such. I have been to a KBT therapist, liked everything but kept procrastinating. At times I have tried to take shortcuts into getting better, jumping over steps that I "should" have done and eventually everything came crushing down.
I am currently working with a book on dealing with social phobia (have read most of it but have trouble getting started as usual) with KBT.
I have dealt with my anxieties throughout life by eating alot of junkfood, which has turned into an addiction that I have handled now and then. I have been working out alot, exercising, over the years because of it and one of my goals have been to get a fit body and I actually achieved it, I went from a weight of 110 kg to 79 kg and sure that was great.
But it didn't give me what I thought it would so I fell back into junkfood eating and have been going back and forth a little since then, somewhat uncertain about what I should do.
I still work out but I know that I have to do something about my social problems but I keep postponing it and it scares me. I even have anxiety before a planned session to sit down and WORK with the KBT book! Its like I am scared to delve into my mind to find out what is in there, what kind of crazy beliefs I have created over the years (I will be 30 in two months!!, scary as hell man), it all feels so overwhelming, like an impossible task to accomplish.
I get anxious/negavite/depressed nowadays just to be alone with my own thoughts (after a while), therefore I always watch tv, read or do something to occupy me. I think this is the main reason that I cant get things started because I just cant stand myself anymore. And without the tv or a book there is nothing that protects me from my negative self hating thought patterns.
I am an expert at rambling on about different subjects though, hehe.
But anyway I am glad to be here.
