hi, thats me...

[dull_stallion]

Hi people,
Im glad Ive found this forum with people like me. I realised just a few weeks ago I have SP, because Ive never heard of it before. I havent been diagnosied with SP, but all symptoms fits for me.
Im 18 male. I was always shy as long as I remember and I always blamed myself for it, but knowing I have SP doesnt solve the problem and its getting even worse. Its hard at school its hard at home. Mainly at schol. Since I started attending secondary schol (its three years by now) I have no friends. Not just one friend! I was traying at first to do something about it, but now I pretty-much gave up hope. Ive seen some shy people they have shy friends, but not me...If I had just one friend life would be so much easier. Its pretty clear I had never girlfriend also. I wonder If I even really talked to one...
Its hard to talk to someone or answer when Im not comfortable. Plus I feel Im lacking some social skills.
Im so quiet at school and then depressed at home and these suicidal thoughts...Im seriously sick of my life. Its always the same stereotipe: school-home-depression, school-home-depression, school-home-depression...nothing between. I dont go out. I cant watching how Im wasting my best years, how I keep living at my own little world. But enought complaining...

My mum noticed there is something wrong with me, she wants to help me. But Im not sure if its good idea to tell her about SP, Im adult and I dont want blame her, scare her or something...

Thanks for reading my post and please write what do you thing about it.

Its 3:30 am now, Im going to sleep...bye

 

[Kien]

Hello. I have a few friends which I hardly ever talk or spend time with, not even on msn. Life of mine seems very similar to yours. Boring, depressing, sick of life.

 

[recluse]

Hi, welcome to sa

 

[ktea]

hey I'm 15 and I'm a girl. I have social phobia too. I have no friends and I never go out. I've never been to a party, never had a boyfriend...never hung out with anyone. :[ I've been having suicidal thoughts lately. I've self-harmed. I'm on meds and they don't work. pills don't do anything. sorry I'm rambling. Maybe you could message me. I'd like to talk to you. :]
Also, watch this video if you have the time. two doctors discuss Social Anxiety Disorder, AKA social phobia.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4truuD_xMP0

 

[dull_stallion]

hi people,
Thought I might write whats new so here it goes...
Im somewhat still afraid of posting. Nothing pretty much has changed since my first post in my life, my mum already knows Im a freak, there are days when I think Im fine, but anther day I have suicidal tastes again...
Days are passing by and I rot here at home with my dad, which I hate and dont speak with, but thats other story...Still have no one to talk to.
Plus this holidays are coming...I dont really know whats worse, if holidays or school. I cant stand it at home, nor school.

When I feel bad I listen these tapes abour overcomming SP, it hasnt helpt me yet, but atlest helps me to better understand whats happening in my head, anyway I will continue the progress, and Ill let you know.

Thats all I had in my mind, I kinda had to mood to express myself so thanks for reading this pathetic post.
And sorry for this poor english...Im still learning