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LucyJ

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Hi. I'm Lucy. I guess I don't really know what's wrong with me - I've had some people tell me I have the worst self-esteem of anyone they've encountered. I spent a lot of time as a kid being told that I wasn't good enough. When my step-mom came into the picture, she told me I was the worst person she's ever met on a weekly basis. I got picked on a lot when I was growing up - even by kids I thought were my friends. So I always tried to avoid hanging around with more than one other person, because I hated that feeling of being ganged up on.

I spent ten years, roughly, working at crummy jobs where I never felt particularly well-liked. The last one was the worst - I've never felt worse about myself. By the time I left, I was coming home in tears on a daily basis. I went back to college to pursue a career as a veterinary assistant. When I told my father I was graduating with a 95% average, he asked why it wasn't higher - after all, community college is easy.

I found this site awhile ago after a VERY mild confrontation with the manager at the vet clinic I work made me go to pieces. She was very contrite, because she really didn't mean to upset me, but it took me almost an hour to pull myself together. I did some searching on Google, and this came up. I've been a little shy about posting. I guess I'm worried I won't find acceptance here either. I've never been diagnosed with anything- I don't know if what's going on with me is really social anxiety, or what. I'm too afraid to go to anyone.
 
Mickery

Mickery

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Extreme, persistent and disabling social anxiety may be diagnosed as social anxiety disorder. The experience is commonly described as having physiological components (e.g., sweating, blushing), cognitive/perceptual components (e.g., belief that one may be judged negatively or looking for signs of disapproval), and behavioral components (e.g. avoiding a situation).

The essence of social anxiety has been said to be an irrational or unreasonable expectation of negative evaluation by others.[1] One theory is that social anxiety occurs when there is motivation to make a desired impression along with doubt about having the ability to do so.[12]
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Sound familiar? Everyone has social anxiety to some extent, what makes it a disorder is having it to the point where it notably affects your quality of life.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Hi Lucy,welcome to the forums,I honestly don't think there's anything wrong with you.You just seem shy.I really don't think you have to worry about acceptence in here,ppl r really friendly in this site.
 
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Paahi

Paahi

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Hi Lucy, sorry to hear you have to put up with all that.

Im sure you will find acceptance here :)
 
rbecca

rbecca

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Hey Lucy, welcome to SPW.
I'm sorry to hear all that :/ As far as my opinion can go,i think you're nice,just really shy.
And indeed, don't worry about people being mean here, believe me, they're very nice ^^
 
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