Hi im new, and i have some questions

[DarthRic]

Hey, as you saw from the post title im new here, i came looking for forums for people with OCDs after my OCDs became unbearable.... ok, well i had OCDs for... i dont know how long exactly, but for about 5 or 6 years i think(im 17 now 18 soon) they have taken many different forms, the most prominent and hard to beat one has been a compulsion where i feel i have to tell my parents (particuarly my mum who better understands i think) things i have seen or done which i think might be considered bad, and have had others, for example when i take my hand off something or do something i have to be thinking the right thing, the thing is i have had anti depresants for the last few years and the OCDs have all but disapeared more or less, or reduced down to such low levels that they dont really interfere with life, but i recently came off my anti depresants, on top of that, just after i came off, i got a girlfriend for the first time, at first, stuff went well, but the problem is now i get a compulsion where i feel i have to tell her things and i think its taking a toll on our relationship, its got very bad in the last few weeks, and i wanted to know if anyone here has ever had similar problems with compulsions to tell people stuff or if anyone has any ways to cope with problems like these, thanks for reading, and im just glad now that i can talk to people like me

 

[M3nt0R]

Well, I know what you mean. One of my symptoms is just what you explained. I feel the urge to just tell the truth as it is because if I'm trying to cover something up, I get such bad anxiety...I fear they will find out eventually, I fear I'll be looked down upon when they find out, I fear they'll catch me in my lie, my voice gets a bit shakey, etc. I can't really help you out.

Last night, for example, was my girlfriend's birthday. Her parents trust me so much and trust her so much more when she's with me. I HATE when she drinks a lot when she's with me because i really DO NOT want her to get caught while on my watch because all my credibility will be lost to her parents and family.

yesterday, she got pretty drunk and had a sentimental episode where she was crying. her father knew right away she had been drinking and offered me a ride home. It was even harder to cover up because she had told them she went to new york and even when her mom called she told her she was in new york having a good time. I didn't know this so when her dad asked i said we just hung out at my house and he caught her in her lie.

I had to cover up on the ride home saying her bloodshot eyes were because she was crying the whole walk home (which was true) and we were gonna go to new york but she ended up having a big argument with her friends and made up excuses about how she was confronting them about them being fake with her and being bad friends and all that stuff.

The whole time the WHOLE time i just wanted to say "YES SHE DRANK AND I DRANK WITH HER AND HER FRIENDS TOO OKAY?" I just wanted to come clean and it was so hard to lie adn cover up but I knew I had to or I wouldn't be able to see her for a couple of weeks probably. I know what you mean man it SUCKS