notyourcommodity
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hi there,
my name is kim, and i'm 21 and new here. don't really know how to start this, i guess that my social phobia has gotten to a point where i need to talk to some of you about it. i haven't been diagnosed by a professional as such, but i'm pretty sure my symptoms are in line with social phobia.
i have very few real world friends, to be honest, i shy away from making friends. there are a lot of people in my life through work and such that often suggest wanting to do something social with me but i always put it off or make excuses. i've finished a uni course [i did my bachelor of psychology, hah!] and i'm still working the same part time job i had since i was 15 [as a fast food employee] because to be honest the thought of looking for a new job scares the absolute shit out of me. i'm comfortable enough where i am. lately it's just gotten to a point though where i need to talk to someone about this. i had my uni graduation last month and i was that nervous about it that i felt nauseous, just being around people makes me feel sick. i get angry as well? it sounds weird but for instance at my graduation my mum and dad wanted me to get professional photos and i went absolutely nuts at them because i just wanted to go home.
i think also this whole social phobia thing is affecting my relationship. my boyfriend is really understanding and helpful but for instance this evening he wanted to go visit 2 of his friends. i told him i was feeling sick and didnt want to go, which was a lie. anyways, it all ended up with me crying my eyes out for at least 1/2 an hour being upset at me being the way i am. i cant think of a particular instance when all this started, i was probably 12 or 13 when i started getting quite self conscious and it probably developed from there. anyway..sorry for the huge intro. just needed to get some stuff off my chest. looking forward to talking to some of you soon, and any advice also wouldnt go astray!
thanks,
kim
my name is kim, and i'm 21 and new here. don't really know how to start this, i guess that my social phobia has gotten to a point where i need to talk to some of you about it. i haven't been diagnosed by a professional as such, but i'm pretty sure my symptoms are in line with social phobia.
i have very few real world friends, to be honest, i shy away from making friends. there are a lot of people in my life through work and such that often suggest wanting to do something social with me but i always put it off or make excuses. i've finished a uni course [i did my bachelor of psychology, hah!] and i'm still working the same part time job i had since i was 15 [as a fast food employee] because to be honest the thought of looking for a new job scares the absolute shit out of me. i'm comfortable enough where i am. lately it's just gotten to a point though where i need to talk to someone about this. i had my uni graduation last month and i was that nervous about it that i felt nauseous, just being around people makes me feel sick. i get angry as well? it sounds weird but for instance at my graduation my mum and dad wanted me to get professional photos and i went absolutely nuts at them because i just wanted to go home.
i think also this whole social phobia thing is affecting my relationship. my boyfriend is really understanding and helpful but for instance this evening he wanted to go visit 2 of his friends. i told him i was feeling sick and didnt want to go, which was a lie. anyways, it all ended up with me crying my eyes out for at least 1/2 an hour being upset at me being the way i am. i cant think of a particular instance when all this started, i was probably 12 or 13 when i started getting quite self conscious and it probably developed from there. anyway..sorry for the huge intro. just needed to get some stuff off my chest. looking forward to talking to some of you soon, and any advice also wouldnt go astray!
thanks,
kim
