kt2222
Active member
Hi everyone im K 23 from the uk.I ve been suffering now for a about 3 and a half years last year i had a great 6 months or so where i would almost say i was cured! lol
i have been dealing with panic disorder social phobia's generealized anxeity.
a bit of background really had a happy happy child hood was a champion gymnast had a absolute wicked time at school.. had a huge group of close knit friends that i have taken on to adult life most of these people u have knwn since 3 years old. i was overly confident high independant traveling on my own from the age of 17. i was a university student and worked for a highly respected company.
However since my sport days i had always been told that i had a un usually fast heart rate at rest easily 100-110 it had never been a problem.. un til someone said to me one day that i need to have it looked in to .. so i took myself off to the doctors for a check up. the doctor told me that there was nothing wrong but if i want to have a scan then he would happily refer me.. so i thought HEY ill have a scan i thought nothing is wrong but it wont do me any harm.. un til the results came through saying that a part of my heart was enlarged having a specalist that basically was crap .. didnt tell me exactly what this meant gave me beta blockers and told me to go away and come back in a year..... so the slippery slope starts here... i came home and took the tab which technically should have been given to a patient with high blood pressure so i faint after 3 hours of taking one.. and my heart rate dropped to sixty obviously i panicked!! the then the wonderful world of the internet i type in enlarged heart and found so much on a condition that is fatal! well there you go i started getting panick attacks which i mistook for my heart packing in on me and so on ... after a year i went back to the hospital and had a wonderful specalist who actually told me my heart was perfect.. and just like anything comes in all shapes and sizes my heart is not technically a textbook diagram but i have more chance of being hit by a bus than having a heart attack! but the damage was already done!
nearly four years later im still battling with it i lot my job my social life has been hugely effected. house bound etc.
i ve come here to maybe here some inspirational stories talk about beating this damn condition that at the moment is wreaking my life.
so for the ramble on lol!!!
